Time Off
I'm really entertaining the idea of flying to Korea for a few weeks with my brother once I'm done with university. It'll be one of those things that I do for myself, and hopefully it's something I need. I do appreciate what my family does for me, I'm able to stay at my mom's and my aunt's house without paying anything, but I give back to them by running errands, and half the time, they go around my schedule.
For instance, with my grandmother, I take her to her doctors appointments, and she schedules them at times when I'm not in school. When my grandpa was still alive, it was the same thing. I pick up my cousin who goes to preschool every Tuesdays and Thursdays because I don't have any class then too. I also go to the store with my grandma when she asks me. You could say that they've become slightly dependent on me, but I don't blame them considering I'm there for the majority of the week. Same thing happened when I was living back home; I usually had morning classes, so when I was done with them, I would stay at home until my sister calls me so I could pick her up from school. Both of them play sports too and I would drop them off and pick them up from practice. It was a bit annoying in a selfish way because all I wanted to do was stay at home, but I still did it.
And no matter how much I complain about all of this to myself, the things that I do for my family, they don't force me to do any of this; I choose to do them. For that I felt like I was just a convenience, but I should remind myself what would happen if I did decide to live somewhere else or something like that.
I still want some time to myself. When I went to LA for a week to visit Kayla, we didn't do much, but I also liked it because I was doing the things I and she wanted to do, albiet within our budget, but it was still a nice week. Now I should imagine doing this with my brother visiting another country. That'd be fun.
Next year. Hopefully.
For instance, with my grandmother, I take her to her doctors appointments, and she schedules them at times when I'm not in school. When my grandpa was still alive, it was the same thing. I pick up my cousin who goes to preschool every Tuesdays and Thursdays because I don't have any class then too. I also go to the store with my grandma when she asks me. You could say that they've become slightly dependent on me, but I don't blame them considering I'm there for the majority of the week. Same thing happened when I was living back home; I usually had morning classes, so when I was done with them, I would stay at home until my sister calls me so I could pick her up from school. Both of them play sports too and I would drop them off and pick them up from practice. It was a bit annoying in a selfish way because all I wanted to do was stay at home, but I still did it.
And no matter how much I complain about all of this to myself, the things that I do for my family, they don't force me to do any of this; I choose to do them. For that I felt like I was just a convenience, but I should remind myself what would happen if I did decide to live somewhere else or something like that.
I still want some time to myself. When I went to LA for a week to visit Kayla, we didn't do much, but I also liked it because I was doing the things I and she wanted to do, albiet within our budget, but it was still a nice week. Now I should imagine doing this with my brother visiting another country. That'd be fun.
Next year. Hopefully.