Wow I had a strange and yet profitable idea
I'm thinking that I should sell myself as a husband on ebay....Atleast that way I guess I could have the feeling that somebody wants me....I guess that's what's missing in my life...the feeling that somebody wants me....maybe I'm too dumb to read signs the opposite sex is sending to me....does she like me? how does she like me? should I try to see what her intentions are? I'm tired of the games...I'm tired of the hiding behind subtly...just let me know what you think...I respect the truuth and being hurt more than I respect being toyed with....This is a call out to all the women in my life...tell me what you mean straight out...I have no time for your mind games...though I am a push over so I'll let it happen anyways, but hey atleast I'm stepping up to the plate to let all of you know that I'd respect you more if you were more direct with me.
Let's see what else can I go and drone on about. I know everybody is tired of hearing me complain about the same shit over and over again, but it feels like I'm trapped in this cycle where I am put here for women to use their mind games on me to make themselves feel good about themselves...Just for once please tell me what you want....I'm a stupid man, just let me know...I don't know anymore...the frontal lobotamy is sounding really good right now....I'm not saying the love of my friends isn't good, but you know it's different than the type in a relationship...Shit I'm too the point where I want to my ex-fiancee...it's getting bad...I feel like I have stopped functioning as a social animal...I feel broken and used....I want someone to come along and restore me by giving me some special care....a warm smile and what-not. I know I am asking for too much, but isn't there a girl out there that can just step up and say she's willing to take the challenge that is known as Charles?
I know I should love myself and all that crap before I do all this shit, but I'm asking for a helping and caring hand thru it....and I'm not getting it anywhere in my life right now. All the shit that I have moved past already is catching up with me again....I'm losing faith in myself in the abilities to cope that I thought I had....I wish I knew where I was to go from here.
Let's see what else can I go and drone on about. I know everybody is tired of hearing me complain about the same shit over and over again, but it feels like I'm trapped in this cycle where I am put here for women to use their mind games on me to make themselves feel good about themselves...Just for once please tell me what you want....I'm a stupid man, just let me know...I don't know anymore...the frontal lobotamy is sounding really good right now....I'm not saying the love of my friends isn't good, but you know it's different than the type in a relationship...Shit I'm too the point where I want to my ex-fiancee...it's getting bad...I feel like I have stopped functioning as a social animal...I feel broken and used....I want someone to come along and restore me by giving me some special care....a warm smile and what-not. I know I am asking for too much, but isn't there a girl out there that can just step up and say she's willing to take the challenge that is known as Charles?
I know I should love myself and all that crap before I do all this shit, but I'm asking for a helping and caring hand thru it....and I'm not getting it anywhere in my life right now. All the shit that I have moved past already is catching up with me again....I'm losing faith in myself in the abilities to cope that I thought I had....I wish I knew where I was to go from here.