co-dependence
so yeah. I think the issue here is that I'm still too scared to say "you're being a dick" because then I'm alone. Not alone in the emotional relationship sense but actually alone as in "shit i have no other friends in this city and will go crazy without him around because even being treated badly gives me something to do"
so the solution is to get more friends. Turns out I suck at that.
On the up side, I'm getting some modeling work for being pretty and open minded. Which is good, since I quit working at that awful waitressing gig. I think 24 is the year of sexuality. Not even in the way you're thinking, but I've started modeling for this company that deals with the fetishy crowd and I've gone to some of the events and find them fascinating. And I might be going to the east coast porn convention in NYC as a model for them as well. Which I think will have to be quite an education. Maybe i can make friends with some porn stars... then i'll have friends, at least.
so the solution is to get more friends. Turns out I suck at that.
On the up side, I'm getting some modeling work for being pretty and open minded. Which is good, since I quit working at that awful waitressing gig. I think 24 is the year of sexuality. Not even in the way you're thinking, but I've started modeling for this company that deals with the fetishy crowd and I've gone to some of the events and find them fascinating. And I might be going to the east coast porn convention in NYC as a model for them as well. Which I think will have to be quite an education. Maybe i can make friends with some porn stars... then i'll have friends, at least.