Unsure and a little confused
So for a few weeks now I have been asked to help out by writing articles for this gaming news blog. At first it was just Stefan asking on their behalf because he knew they need more people to help lighten the work load. Now it's the site owner too and it's become almost every day. I quipped the other day that they hadn't even read any of my work, why would they want me? It's not just my writing that has me a hesitant about accepting the offer. The site is for gamers. I play some games but I can't bring myself to say I am a gamer. I'm barely a geek, and I'm only that because I do geek out about some things. I'm just not someone who is an authority on anything. Normally I turn to Stefan or the internet for help with games because I'm just not good at them. Okay so I'm a decent healer on WoW, but even then I've been scared of healing groups for years now. I got kicked out of a group once because my healing wasn't up to par for a heroic instance. Granted, I'd never been in there and my gear wasn't good yet but still it's stuck with me. I worry and because of it I haven't allowed myself to do heroics or raids since. (Aside from the raid group that I was a secondary healer for for a bit.) And that is one game. Other than that I've played some Final Fantasy, but have never actually finished a game. I'm not fond of first person shooters. I couldn't even get into the Elder Scrolls games, not even Elder Scrolls Online. Diablo? Nope. Tomb Raider? Nope. Which is sad because I own all of them. I even own the newer pirate Assassin's Creed and haven't bothered installing it.
I play WoW, the Sims, and Candy Crush. This does not make a gamer. Not even the fact that I am stumbling my way through a Pathfinder campaign every other week gives me the qualification to write about games. I don't know anything about the studios that put out the games (I am decent at parroting Stefan on a few of them) or the designers. I'm not up to date on the new releases. I don't even have a wish list on my Steam account. Honestly I'm confused as to why Stefan isn't the one being asked to write for them. Actually he might be being asked too for all I know but I haven't been told that he has. He plays games all the time and is a far better writer for such things than I.
But it is writing. And if I'm ever to really break into that world I should be jumping at the opportunity. So why am I balking? Oh right, I'm terrified of such things.
I play WoW, the Sims, and Candy Crush. This does not make a gamer. Not even the fact that I am stumbling my way through a Pathfinder campaign every other week gives me the qualification to write about games. I don't know anything about the studios that put out the games (I am decent at parroting Stefan on a few of them) or the designers. I'm not up to date on the new releases. I don't even have a wish list on my Steam account. Honestly I'm confused as to why Stefan isn't the one being asked to write for them. Actually he might be being asked too for all I know but I haven't been told that he has. He plays games all the time and is a far better writer for such things than I.
But it is writing. And if I'm ever to really break into that world I should be jumping at the opportunity. So why am I balking? Oh right, I'm terrified of such things.