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so.
got alot of stuff going on.
i think im going to start a blog to post all my pictures cause they are stacking up and people are asking for them and i hate sending one million emails to everyone.
i never update because i feel like i never have anything to say, but i read about everyone elses life on here everyday so i thought maybe i should contribute.
ive been pretty inspired lately to make things. little accessories, toys, clothes, books, everything. but the problem is that im inspired becasuse all the other stuff ive been seeing is shit. i went to a fashion show last night and the clothes were so horrible i thought maybe she had never learned to sew. i mean really really bad. seams all crooked, hems uneven, everything puffing where it shouldnt and pulling all over the place. i wouldnt being saying this stuff if i didnt know it could be done better. ive taken every sewing class and made my fair share of garments and i was really unimpressed by this shit. i just think that if your going to do something it should be done right.
so im going to start sewing again because im tired of looking at all this crap other people are doing. i know that is so super arrogant but its who i am.
also my toys are coming along slowly but surely. i made an amazing 3-d plush book about my pill that is about 12 inches high and 4 inches across. ill post some pictures because im super proud of it. ive been making little books in my spare time and have had so many great ideas from the little old ladies in my class.
school is fun this semester but its alot of work and i think im only going to take one or two classes next semster. plus they dont want to give me anymore financial aid becuase ive taken too many units and i have to change my educational plan. the system is so fucked. i cant get any money because im under 24 and not married, and even though my parents make nothing i still dont qualify for alot of things. the fact that i have a perfect 4.0 for 95 fucking units apparently means nothing to the school who wont let me apply for a bunch of scholarships or calgrants because my gpa is too good...
i quess right now im angry about alot of things, which is why i keep going on on rants about how angry i am....see this journal is helpful!
so right now im pretty poor and on Monday im going to talk to my boss about how much i want to get paid. now this kind of thing is really hard for me and i know he cant pay me as much as im worth to him right now because the business is not going so well because of the economy. i just always feel really awkward about telling people to give me money. i have an idea of how much i want to get paid but the other day he said something that was ridiculously lower than that and im hoping he just wasnt thinking. im going to be getting paid by the day and i will probably only come in 2-3 days a week. which is going to be very nice for a change. except that im also in school full time and am interning with obey clothing right now. so ill still be pretty busy, but now ill be getting paid for it. oh i am the assistant designer for a clothing company called Seawolf which specializes in pirate shit. i do t-shirts and accessories for men women and children and im also the personal assistant to my boss because im the only other person that works there. i have alot of responsibility and alot of work because there are only two of us but its really fun and satisfying and its a step in the right direction for what ive always wanted to do. i mean im basically beginning my dream career at 21. except now im not sure that i want to do clothing at all. im really about art and toys at the moment and im looking to gear more towards that. i basically want to do everything.
okay that should be enough for now. perhaps ill start updating more regularly
got alot of stuff going on.
i think im going to start a blog to post all my pictures cause they are stacking up and people are asking for them and i hate sending one million emails to everyone.
i never update because i feel like i never have anything to say, but i read about everyone elses life on here everyday so i thought maybe i should contribute.
ive been pretty inspired lately to make things. little accessories, toys, clothes, books, everything. but the problem is that im inspired becasuse all the other stuff ive been seeing is shit. i went to a fashion show last night and the clothes were so horrible i thought maybe she had never learned to sew. i mean really really bad. seams all crooked, hems uneven, everything puffing where it shouldnt and pulling all over the place. i wouldnt being saying this stuff if i didnt know it could be done better. ive taken every sewing class and made my fair share of garments and i was really unimpressed by this shit. i just think that if your going to do something it should be done right.
so im going to start sewing again because im tired of looking at all this crap other people are doing. i know that is so super arrogant but its who i am.
also my toys are coming along slowly but surely. i made an amazing 3-d plush book about my pill that is about 12 inches high and 4 inches across. ill post some pictures because im super proud of it. ive been making little books in my spare time and have had so many great ideas from the little old ladies in my class.
school is fun this semester but its alot of work and i think im only going to take one or two classes next semster. plus they dont want to give me anymore financial aid becuase ive taken too many units and i have to change my educational plan. the system is so fucked. i cant get any money because im under 24 and not married, and even though my parents make nothing i still dont qualify for alot of things. the fact that i have a perfect 4.0 for 95 fucking units apparently means nothing to the school who wont let me apply for a bunch of scholarships or calgrants because my gpa is too good...
i quess right now im angry about alot of things, which is why i keep going on on rants about how angry i am....see this journal is helpful!
so right now im pretty poor and on Monday im going to talk to my boss about how much i want to get paid. now this kind of thing is really hard for me and i know he cant pay me as much as im worth to him right now because the business is not going so well because of the economy. i just always feel really awkward about telling people to give me money. i have an idea of how much i want to get paid but the other day he said something that was ridiculously lower than that and im hoping he just wasnt thinking. im going to be getting paid by the day and i will probably only come in 2-3 days a week. which is going to be very nice for a change. except that im also in school full time and am interning with obey clothing right now. so ill still be pretty busy, but now ill be getting paid for it. oh i am the assistant designer for a clothing company called Seawolf which specializes in pirate shit. i do t-shirts and accessories for men women and children and im also the personal assistant to my boss because im the only other person that works there. i have alot of responsibility and alot of work because there are only two of us but its really fun and satisfying and its a step in the right direction for what ive always wanted to do. i mean im basically beginning my dream career at 21. except now im not sure that i want to do clothing at all. im really about art and toys at the moment and im looking to gear more towards that. i basically want to do everything.
okay that should be enough for now. perhaps ill start updating more regularly