My Cocoon
I find myself wanting to transform, to change myself, my core being, to learn how to loosen up, look at things in an unconventional manner, enjoy life for what it is and what it contains.
When I think about looking back on my life, I want it to be like those 1940's-1960's family movies, where everyone is enjoying themselves, its going a bit too fast, and there's some cheesy folk music playing in the background, and every memory that passes by on the flickering screen, you tear up, laugh, and smile at the memories of your life.
I don't know how I picture myself, ten years, five...or even one year from now. I just know, I don't want it to be the same person I am now. I want to be interested in myself, I want to be able to say to myself "Wow...I'm interesting..."
I believe that's my biggest problem right now, I don't find myself, or much of anything Interesting.
I hope with moving to Chicago, being out of my safety zone, totally away from everything I find normal, and actually start having to think for myself instead of someone always telling me to do something, will force me to change, to wake up, to get things done.
When I think about looking back on my life, I want it to be like those 1940's-1960's family movies, where everyone is enjoying themselves, its going a bit too fast, and there's some cheesy folk music playing in the background, and every memory that passes by on the flickering screen, you tear up, laugh, and smile at the memories of your life.
I don't know how I picture myself, ten years, five...or even one year from now. I just know, I don't want it to be the same person I am now. I want to be interested in myself, I want to be able to say to myself "Wow...I'm interesting..."
I believe that's my biggest problem right now, I don't find myself, or much of anything Interesting.
I hope with moving to Chicago, being out of my safety zone, totally away from everything I find normal, and actually start having to think for myself instead of someone always telling me to do something, will force me to change, to wake up, to get things done.