I'm such an old Lady
It has been an eternity since I have taken a mental dump. Lets see... I celebrated my 24th B-day! Yeah me, I'm pushing over the hill!!! I have many goals that I want to accomplish but I have a problem of losing momentum. I get all excited that YES! I am goin gto change my life around.... YES! I am going to find my own happiness... YES! I am going to make a difference... but then trouble comes around and totally knocks me back down to ground level again. I would think that with all the shit I have been knocked against that I am stronger but I really have to wonder sometimes.
Lets see... what has gone on with the latest drama with Michelle.... We had a really rough night recently and I kinda told my parents how she was treating me so my dad told me that if I find a reasonably priced apartment then he would help me pay for it. I was all full of steam and looking for my own place. ( but then again I lost momentum) and I thought maybe I'll just give her one more chance and see if things will get better. But I know... I KNOW... that I need to leave this situation. I want to be in a relationship that I am proud of. If I am going to be with that person then I want to share my relationship with the world and not worry about who I can be open with and who I have to hide it from. I guess I have this fantasy that my ideal partner will walk up to me and I will know that this is the person who I am meant to be with.
Don't fairy tales ever come true...
Lets see... what has gone on with the latest drama with Michelle.... We had a really rough night recently and I kinda told my parents how she was treating me so my dad told me that if I find a reasonably priced apartment then he would help me pay for it. I was all full of steam and looking for my own place. ( but then again I lost momentum) and I thought maybe I'll just give her one more chance and see if things will get better. But I know... I KNOW... that I need to leave this situation. I want to be in a relationship that I am proud of. If I am going to be with that person then I want to share my relationship with the world and not worry about who I can be open with and who I have to hide it from. I guess I have this fantasy that my ideal partner will walk up to me and I will know that this is the person who I am meant to be with.
Don't fairy tales ever come true...