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Having to say goodbye to all of these kids that I've known and looked up to for so very long was difficult. More difficult than I made it look. More difficult than people will ever know.
When I walked into school today I half expected Vince to be waiting there between the B and C halls listening to music until I arrived. I feel pretty pessimistic about the next year of high school. I've alienated myself (on purpose and by accident) from so many people my own age that I fear I will be alone. Going and seeing Wolfbrigade with Robby, Vince, and Brendan made me realize many things. For most of middle school and freshman year I thought that those guys were some of the coolest people and last night made me realize that by not seriously befriending them until last portion of their high school career Wasn't a bad thing. To be totally honest, I understand now that I wasn't missing much. I just wonder what people think sometimes. Sitting in Backspace last night Brendan says to me, "So Joey, did you ever think that we would be hanging out together?". I almost didn't know what to say. I simply replied, "well, I didn't think I would be hanging out with any of these guys." Brendan chuckled and we went on talking about other things. Strange, indeed.
I would have to say that this year of high school was probably my most enjoyable. As I see a slow decline in my interest in school and good grades, I see an increase in happiness and sociablity. I think that I may be finally finding my place. To all my friends that have moved on to college or whatever I wish you luck. This next year will be an interesting test of my personal strength. It'll be approaching faster than I can imagine.
When I walked into school today I half expected Vince to be waiting there between the B and C halls listening to music until I arrived. I feel pretty pessimistic about the next year of high school. I've alienated myself (on purpose and by accident) from so many people my own age that I fear I will be alone. Going and seeing Wolfbrigade with Robby, Vince, and Brendan made me realize many things. For most of middle school and freshman year I thought that those guys were some of the coolest people and last night made me realize that by not seriously befriending them until last portion of their high school career Wasn't a bad thing. To be totally honest, I understand now that I wasn't missing much. I just wonder what people think sometimes. Sitting in Backspace last night Brendan says to me, "So Joey, did you ever think that we would be hanging out together?". I almost didn't know what to say. I simply replied, "well, I didn't think I would be hanging out with any of these guys." Brendan chuckled and we went on talking about other things. Strange, indeed.
I would have to say that this year of high school was probably my most enjoyable. As I see a slow decline in my interest in school and good grades, I see an increase in happiness and sociablity. I think that I may be finally finding my place. To all my friends that have moved on to college or whatever I wish you luck. This next year will be an interesting test of my personal strength. It'll be approaching faster than I can imagine.