Are Morals Worth It?
Morality, like art, means drawing a line someplace.
Oscar Wilde (1854 - 1900)
He broke me and my trust, that little boy. For one month and twenty-eight days, I thought he was different. I thought he just might have been the one guy who truly cared about me. I was so so wrong. He was just as bad, if not worse, than the rest of them. My ex-beau, *Harold, had all my insecurities explained to him. *confedential, of course* The result was me explaining to him how I was most likely going to wait to have sex when I was much older (i.e. 18). He agreed that I had a good reason to come to this conclusion, and said he was fine with waiting. I was relieved, and thought nothing more of it. Until one day, best friend, *Frieda, told me that he kept pushing the topic, and how he probably couldn't wait that long. I still wouldn't and still won't budge. That's when she told me what he said that really ended it all for me. He said that I wasn't being fair to him in making him wait to have sex! It was over then. I can't be with someone like that EVER.
Most people say that he's a guy, and therefore needs it, but at what cost. *Frieda says he doesn't even care that it's over, which makes me feel oh so special. I have morals, and I stick to them. Hell, I still haven't even gotten my first kiss from anyone yet, and he expects me to go all the way with him?! No, I don't think so. But, it makes me wonder, are all guys like that? Is their brain so run by that that they have to pressure their girlfriends into doing things that they really don't want to do, and make us feel so worthless aftrewards, even if we hadn't done anything to begin with? Now, I know that I'm going to get swamped with angry comments from the two guys that actually read this, but I know that you two are different, so you don't have to defend yourselves. These are just thoughts. It's weird in high school at this age, because I'm not the only one who this has happened to. I know this one girl, *Veronica, who's ex told her that she needed to sleep with him because all of his ex's had. She told him no, and he passed her a note in class telling her what a b*tch and a whore she was for telling him no. Unfortunately for *Veronica, the teacher saw the note, and made her read it in front of the whole entire class! *Angel, my brother's girlfriend, had one of her ex's break up with her because she wouldn't have sex with him. In fact, every guy that I've met, and been friends with, have tried something with me. I want to trust so badly, but they all seem the same. I don't know what to do. At this rate, I'll be alone forever.
<3 Stacey
* Names have been changed.
Oscar Wilde (1854 - 1900)
He broke me and my trust, that little boy. For one month and twenty-eight days, I thought he was different. I thought he just might have been the one guy who truly cared about me. I was so so wrong. He was just as bad, if not worse, than the rest of them. My ex-beau, *Harold, had all my insecurities explained to him. *confedential, of course* The result was me explaining to him how I was most likely going to wait to have sex when I was much older (i.e. 18). He agreed that I had a good reason to come to this conclusion, and said he was fine with waiting. I was relieved, and thought nothing more of it. Until one day, best friend, *Frieda, told me that he kept pushing the topic, and how he probably couldn't wait that long. I still wouldn't and still won't budge. That's when she told me what he said that really ended it all for me. He said that I wasn't being fair to him in making him wait to have sex! It was over then. I can't be with someone like that EVER.
Most people say that he's a guy, and therefore needs it, but at what cost. *Frieda says he doesn't even care that it's over, which makes me feel oh so special. I have morals, and I stick to them. Hell, I still haven't even gotten my first kiss from anyone yet, and he expects me to go all the way with him?! No, I don't think so. But, it makes me wonder, are all guys like that? Is their brain so run by that that they have to pressure their girlfriends into doing things that they really don't want to do, and make us feel so worthless aftrewards, even if we hadn't done anything to begin with? Now, I know that I'm going to get swamped with angry comments from the two guys that actually read this, but I know that you two are different, so you don't have to defend yourselves. These are just thoughts. It's weird in high school at this age, because I'm not the only one who this has happened to. I know this one girl, *Veronica, who's ex told her that she needed to sleep with him because all of his ex's had. She told him no, and he passed her a note in class telling her what a b*tch and a whore she was for telling him no. Unfortunately for *Veronica, the teacher saw the note, and made her read it in front of the whole entire class! *Angel, my brother's girlfriend, had one of her ex's break up with her because she wouldn't have sex with him. In fact, every guy that I've met, and been friends with, have tried something with me. I want to trust so badly, but they all seem the same. I don't know what to do. At this rate, I'll be alone forever.
<3 Stacey
* Names have been changed.