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virginiamccain: meow
Jacob: i really dont want to talk now
virginiamccain: mad at me?
virginiamccain: bye then
virginiamccain: oh and thanks for blocking me on msn i looked on keles msn
Jacob: i dont have anybody blocked i dont have your name anymore, so get over yourself emily, if you cant have em you spoil their lives so no one else will want them, dont talk to me anymore
virginiamccain: what the hell are you talking about
Jacob: all you and brittany did while kele was over there was bitch about me but then you got the balls to tell me you love me, your a poser nothing more nothing less, you have burned your last bridge with me and i hope you hate my guts almost as much as brittany does. i cant help it if i follow my heart and not what everyone else is into so leave me and my friends the hell alone
virginiamccain: i did not trash talk you
virginiamccain: you try and find reasons to distance your self
Jacob: YOU ALWAYS DO! i hear it from all sorts of people in your 3rd hour and who hang around you! get someone who likes drama and you two should be wonderful for each other i dont need this kinda stuff in my life
Jacob: just dont talk to me dont even think about me, you have really pissed me off lately emily
Jacob: get a new obsession
virginiamccain: what the hell are you talking about get your shit strait
Jacob: i do your the one who likes to start shit and lie emily!
virginiamccain: bull shit
Jacob: LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE
Yahoo! Messenger: alucard_knightshade has logged out. (2/16/04 8:16 PM)
later this is an e-mail i sent him
Ok fine. I did not bitch about you that night Brittany did yea but I did not and I tried to get her to stop it. I do fucking love you Jacob! And that’s how you are able to hurt me more each day. You make me feel like I am not even a person. You have been anything but nice to me from the way you broke up with me to the fact that you don’t talk to me and avoid me. I really can’t think of anything that I can turn to anymore. Only thing I can think of the coward’s way out. Yea your going to say I’m stupid and all that shit but you really broke the final straw with me. If I have done any complaining about you it is because you did something mean, rude or spiteful towards me. I was at least trying to be friends with you again because I missed that too. You have no right to tell me to leave your friends alone because some of them are mine too. You don’t own them. Jacob I don’t try and ruin your life you do a good job of that on your own. You want to talk about respect. The way you have been treating me is anything but respectful. And yes I’ll go there: I know you father would not be proud of the way you have treated Brittany or me for that matter. And yes I have said some things about you in my 3rd hour but only because I was depressed and you put me there. A lot of people know you as the shit starter and lier so don’t dare call me one. No I’m not perfect, far from it, and I have not exactly gone about this the right way but I have been trying (obviously not hard enough) to make you happy and do what you want me to. Another thing, I don’t hate you. There is nothing you could do to make me that way. I do however not like you and your actions at the moment. I truly am sorry for wasting your time because obviously I never held a place in your heart. You lied to me when you told me you love me. I’m sorry you felt obligated to stay with me. I’m sorry. I’m sorry I fell in love with you and believed that you felt the same for me. You really have no idea how much you have just hurt me. That is my breaking point and I don’t think I can take any more of this stress. I’m sorry that I could not be Brittany or be someone you could love. I’m sorry for wasting your time. I’m sorry that I even occupied your thoughts and made you exert enough effort to tell me to leave you alone. I’m sorry I wasted anyone’s time. I know you won’t feel pity or sadness in fact you probably should hate me. Hell you should probably wish me dead and that would be all right with me. And talk about pissing you off, you have sent me to hell with my emotions and the way you have treated me. You’re the one who has lied. You lied the day that you told me you love me or when you would very well have lost your virginity and told me you were following your heart. That incident was cruel and wrong and you know it was. Brittany could verify I did not trash talk you. Ask her. Go ahead. I talked about some of the sweet things that you did when we were dating. It hurts me because I can still remember the way that you used to look in my eyes and tell me you love me and now to know I was one big lie. I feel like you used me because I was there and you did not want to be alone. In all honesty I hope that you and the girl you are with stay together because you seem happy with her. Surprisingly enough I do want you to be happy. I think it would be better for everyone if I did not exist. I am nothing more than a pain in the ass to everyone that knows me. I am an aggravation and unwanted. I wish I did have the balls to kill myself but I know I can’t I’m sure you would be more that happy if I did. I truly am sorry for wasting your time. Thank you for pointing out all I do is make everyone’s lives just a little worse.
Jacob: i really dont want to talk now
virginiamccain: mad at me?
virginiamccain: bye then
virginiamccain: oh and thanks for blocking me on msn i looked on keles msn
Jacob: i dont have anybody blocked i dont have your name anymore, so get over yourself emily, if you cant have em you spoil their lives so no one else will want them, dont talk to me anymore
virginiamccain: what the hell are you talking about
Jacob: all you and brittany did while kele was over there was bitch about me but then you got the balls to tell me you love me, your a poser nothing more nothing less, you have burned your last bridge with me and i hope you hate my guts almost as much as brittany does. i cant help it if i follow my heart and not what everyone else is into so leave me and my friends the hell alone
virginiamccain: i did not trash talk you
virginiamccain: you try and find reasons to distance your self
Jacob: YOU ALWAYS DO! i hear it from all sorts of people in your 3rd hour and who hang around you! get someone who likes drama and you two should be wonderful for each other i dont need this kinda stuff in my life
Jacob: just dont talk to me dont even think about me, you have really pissed me off lately emily
Jacob: get a new obsession
virginiamccain: what the hell are you talking about get your shit strait
Jacob: i do your the one who likes to start shit and lie emily!
virginiamccain: bull shit
Jacob: LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE
Yahoo! Messenger: alucard_knightshade has logged out. (2/16/04 8:16 PM)
later this is an e-mail i sent him
Ok fine. I did not bitch about you that night Brittany did yea but I did not and I tried to get her to stop it. I do fucking love you Jacob! And that’s how you are able to hurt me more each day. You make me feel like I am not even a person. You have been anything but nice to me from the way you broke up with me to the fact that you don’t talk to me and avoid me. I really can’t think of anything that I can turn to anymore. Only thing I can think of the coward’s way out. Yea your going to say I’m stupid and all that shit but you really broke the final straw with me. If I have done any complaining about you it is because you did something mean, rude or spiteful towards me. I was at least trying to be friends with you again because I missed that too. You have no right to tell me to leave your friends alone because some of them are mine too. You don’t own them. Jacob I don’t try and ruin your life you do a good job of that on your own. You want to talk about respect. The way you have been treating me is anything but respectful. And yes I’ll go there: I know you father would not be proud of the way you have treated Brittany or me for that matter. And yes I have said some things about you in my 3rd hour but only because I was depressed and you put me there. A lot of people know you as the shit starter and lier so don’t dare call me one. No I’m not perfect, far from it, and I have not exactly gone about this the right way but I have been trying (obviously not hard enough) to make you happy and do what you want me to. Another thing, I don’t hate you. There is nothing you could do to make me that way. I do however not like you and your actions at the moment. I truly am sorry for wasting your time because obviously I never held a place in your heart. You lied to me when you told me you love me. I’m sorry you felt obligated to stay with me. I’m sorry. I’m sorry I fell in love with you and believed that you felt the same for me. You really have no idea how much you have just hurt me. That is my breaking point and I don’t think I can take any more of this stress. I’m sorry that I could not be Brittany or be someone you could love. I’m sorry for wasting your time. I’m sorry that I even occupied your thoughts and made you exert enough effort to tell me to leave you alone. I’m sorry I wasted anyone’s time. I know you won’t feel pity or sadness in fact you probably should hate me. Hell you should probably wish me dead and that would be all right with me. And talk about pissing you off, you have sent me to hell with my emotions and the way you have treated me. You’re the one who has lied. You lied the day that you told me you love me or when you would very well have lost your virginity and told me you were following your heart. That incident was cruel and wrong and you know it was. Brittany could verify I did not trash talk you. Ask her. Go ahead. I talked about some of the sweet things that you did when we were dating. It hurts me because I can still remember the way that you used to look in my eyes and tell me you love me and now to know I was one big lie. I feel like you used me because I was there and you did not want to be alone. In all honesty I hope that you and the girl you are with stay together because you seem happy with her. Surprisingly enough I do want you to be happy. I think it would be better for everyone if I did not exist. I am nothing more than a pain in the ass to everyone that knows me. I am an aggravation and unwanted. I wish I did have the balls to kill myself but I know I can’t I’m sure you would be more that happy if I did. I truly am sorry for wasting your time. Thank you for pointing out all I do is make everyone’s lives just a little worse.