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I was so close, but death himself did not desire my return. I cannot question death, I want only to embrace it, but even then I do not see the logic behind it all, I belong in the Underworld. But do I... do I have the courage to kill myself?
No.
How could I do that to my family here? Even if I can see that they are both so foolishly friendly to the man who killed our father, our brothers, me. The former offenses are unforgivable, the latter inconsequential, but those with the gift of foresight should see better than all that he is not to be trusted and treated so. Why are they so blind?
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It is very cold here, my lips and fingers are beginning to crack from the dryness of the air. I can barely stand to go outside, but I had to venture out the other day with the administration of the school they expect me to attend. I suppose there is some merit in educating oneself, but I am only to be there a few months and there is no monetary profit to support myself in doing this. I believe I could find employment to fill the rest of the hours of my day, but I am unsure what I would best suit. In any case, I think it is less trouble to comply, and I shall.
It was strange, the woman that I met with was quite kind until she learned of my address. She asked me if I was going to cause trouble as the other students living in this complex do. She gave names, but I was unfamiliar with them all-- I suppose they were the aliases we have been given. I told her I had no intentions of misbehaving, I was not raised to act in such a manner, but she still treated me as coldly as the weather outside. It was all very strange and almost infuriating to be treated so.
I was so close, but death himself did not desire my return. I cannot question death, I want only to embrace it, but even then I do not see the logic behind it all, I belong in the Underworld. But do I... do I have the courage to kill myself?
No.
How could I do that to my family here? Even if I can see that they are both so foolishly friendly to the man who killed our father, our brothers, me. The former offenses are unforgivable, the latter inconsequential, but those with the gift of foresight should see better than all that he is not to be trusted and treated so. Why are they so blind?
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It is very cold here, my lips and fingers are beginning to crack from the dryness of the air. I can barely stand to go outside, but I had to venture out the other day with the administration of the school they expect me to attend. I suppose there is some merit in educating oneself, but I am only to be there a few months and there is no monetary profit to support myself in doing this. I believe I could find employment to fill the rest of the hours of my day, but I am unsure what I would best suit. In any case, I think it is less trouble to comply, and I shall.
It was strange, the woman that I met with was quite kind until she learned of my address. She asked me if I was going to cause trouble as the other students living in this complex do. She gave names, but I was unfamiliar with them all-- I suppose they were the aliases we have been given. I told her I had no intentions of misbehaving, I was not raised to act in such a manner, but she still treated me as coldly as the weather outside. It was all very strange and almost infuriating to be treated so.