On writing...
A lot of musing and questions about the writing process follows...
I woke up today and wrote 8 1/2 pages of implied/potential/impending Petrellicest by hand so I wouldn't have to sit up in bed and use both hands typing.
And now, less than an hour after I finished writing, I have nearly lost interest in that plot bunny. Well, maybe not.
I just hate writing. I mean I love it, but it is like a drug and so all-consuming for me. Especially fanfic, because it's fandom and fandom in my life might as well be called crackdom.
I need a tape recorder attached to my head like all day long so I can capture those random bits because I won't remember them. I can't remember words in sentences I haven't finished speaking; I sure as hell will not remember have a paragraph of introspection by a character with whom I have trouble connecting!
I wrote a lovely few pages of the Tenth Doctor lazing in bed musing about his companions in a drowsy, potentially randy way. But where do I go with it after that?
There must be others lingering on my hard drive. I just found a lovely bit of post-Doomsday exploration of Ten coping (or not) with the loss of Rose. I think I intended it to be a Ten/Sarah Jane bit of angsty smut in which she soothes his gaping wounds...with the salve of her womanly charms. But upon reading the few lines I've written, I don't want to cheapen it with smut later. Maybe it would be a nice one-shot vignette/character study. But I hesitate there because I hate those generally. I mean, well written, they're lovely but they are always the last things I read when gorging myself on a favourite author. (well, kid!fic comes in even after baby!fic but still, for the crack value and potential of smut --needed to make babies, duh--they'd rank above introspection)
I want to write what I would want to read but my standards are too high. I edit too much. I know, I'm a great candidate for NaNoWriMo but I can't decide on plot. I have a bad time with plot.
I want to write with outlines and plans.
I love to write on the fly, though.
I hate to read works in which it shows that the writer just put the characters on the page to "see what they do."
I don't mind it at all if it doesn't show.
I worry that you can tell with my stuff. And the one thing I ever came close to finishing (some of which has even been put up here on this very journal) actually had a story arc fleshed out; I knew where I wanted to go from where I started.
But most of the time I get an idea and all I want to do is corner the characters into doing things they wouldn't be allowed to do in canon (or really wouldn't do in canon, perhaps?).
I'm just a big old bully. I wanna push the characters and see where they end up. Hard to write original fic that way. Fun to attempt fanfic that way.
I want to write smut. I am fairly good at it, imho. But my hangup is getting to the smut. I need to just force myself to start in the middle of it and worry about the setup later. But my favourite bits are the building up to it. That's my fetish. (that and bodyswap. I go Kookoo for Body!swap)
I have finally gotten wise to the concept of writing an idea down, fleshing out scenes as they occur to me, as inspiration strikes and then worrying later if they stand alone or could be incorporated into longer pieces. I get that.
Anybody wanna enlighten me on how they write?
I woke up today and wrote 8 1/2 pages of implied/potential/impending Petrellicest by hand so I wouldn't have to sit up in bed and use both hands typing.
And now, less than an hour after I finished writing, I have nearly lost interest in that plot bunny. Well, maybe not.
I just hate writing. I mean I love it, but it is like a drug and so all-consuming for me. Especially fanfic, because it's fandom and fandom in my life might as well be called crackdom.
I need a tape recorder attached to my head like all day long so I can capture those random bits because I won't remember them. I can't remember words in sentences I haven't finished speaking; I sure as hell will not remember have a paragraph of introspection by a character with whom I have trouble connecting!
I wrote a lovely few pages of the Tenth Doctor lazing in bed musing about his companions in a drowsy, potentially randy way. But where do I go with it after that?
There must be others lingering on my hard drive. I just found a lovely bit of post-Doomsday exploration of Ten coping (or not) with the loss of Rose. I think I intended it to be a Ten/Sarah Jane bit of angsty smut in which she soothes his gaping wounds...with the salve of her womanly charms. But upon reading the few lines I've written, I don't want to cheapen it with smut later. Maybe it would be a nice one-shot vignette/character study. But I hesitate there because I hate those generally. I mean, well written, they're lovely but they are always the last things I read when gorging myself on a favourite author. (well, kid!fic comes in even after baby!fic but still, for the crack value and potential of smut --needed to make babies, duh--they'd rank above introspection)
I want to write what I would want to read but my standards are too high. I edit too much. I know, I'm a great candidate for NaNoWriMo but I can't decide on plot. I have a bad time with plot.
I want to write with outlines and plans.
I love to write on the fly, though.
I hate to read works in which it shows that the writer just put the characters on the page to "see what they do."
I don't mind it at all if it doesn't show.
I worry that you can tell with my stuff. And the one thing I ever came close to finishing (some of which has even been put up here on this very journal) actually had a story arc fleshed out; I knew where I wanted to go from where I started.
But most of the time I get an idea and all I want to do is corner the characters into doing things they wouldn't be allowed to do in canon (or really wouldn't do in canon, perhaps?).
I'm just a big old bully. I wanna push the characters and see where they end up. Hard to write original fic that way. Fun to attempt fanfic that way.
I want to write smut. I am fairly good at it, imho. But my hangup is getting to the smut. I need to just force myself to start in the middle of it and worry about the setup later. But my favourite bits are the building up to it. That's my fetish. (that and bodyswap. I go Kookoo for Body!swap)
I have finally gotten wise to the concept of writing an idea down, fleshing out scenes as they occur to me, as inspiration strikes and then worrying later if they stand alone or could be incorporated into longer pieces. I get that.
Anybody wanna enlighten me on how they write?