Poop
I am updating this journal because I haven't for a while. Usually I only update like once a month a now. Just to let my friends know what's going on, like the ones I don't see or talk to very much anymore.
Going back to school on August 28th. I'm taking my English Compositon class at SMCC on Monday nights. Then i'm also taking an Algebra class at Saco/OOB Adult Ed. because it's cheaper there than it is as the college. Once I finish this semester, I'm going to see if I can handle more than two classes because I really want to get this over with and just get my degree and open my own Business. It's hard though, Working full-time and going to school. I'm just not the kind of person that can take on so much stuff at once. I have a lot of problems with anxiety and stress but I am very confident that I will do this. And I am going to. No matter what. This is my only goal right now, and I need to do it. I seem to have a problem with finishing things I start, and this time, there is no excuses. I will do this.
I feel a lot better than I did last time I updated. My doctor put me on different meds, now i'm taking the Klonapins(sp?) and another anxiety drug. I guess it's working. :-D
Ian and I are doing just as good as ever. Still have yet to argue about anything which is not as much as I can say about my last "relationship". I love him so much. I guess last time I was just in denial that I didn't love that person, if that's what you want to call him. I didn't want to admit that I was going to be alone again. I should have been alone. I would have been ALOT better off. I wasted three years of my life over bullshit. I hate talking about it, and everyone might think i'm not over it because I keep talking/writing about it. But believe me, I AM! I am just comparing my AWESOME relationship with Ian who actually cares about to past mistakes. I've learned.
I love you Ian.
I'm done now. Any friends reading this should call me because it seems like no one can take five minutes out of there day to pick up the phone and dial 7 numbers to CALL ME! You say you are my friends, but it is hard to believe when you don't answer my phone calls, or text me back, or ever call me. So pick up the damn phone.
Peace, Love and....I don't know, you think of sometime to add in there.
Going back to school on August 28th. I'm taking my English Compositon class at SMCC on Monday nights. Then i'm also taking an Algebra class at Saco/OOB Adult Ed. because it's cheaper there than it is as the college. Once I finish this semester, I'm going to see if I can handle more than two classes because I really want to get this over with and just get my degree and open my own Business. It's hard though, Working full-time and going to school. I'm just not the kind of person that can take on so much stuff at once. I have a lot of problems with anxiety and stress but I am very confident that I will do this. And I am going to. No matter what. This is my only goal right now, and I need to do it. I seem to have a problem with finishing things I start, and this time, there is no excuses. I will do this.
I feel a lot better than I did last time I updated. My doctor put me on different meds, now i'm taking the Klonapins(sp?) and another anxiety drug. I guess it's working. :-D
Ian and I are doing just as good as ever. Still have yet to argue about anything which is not as much as I can say about my last "relationship". I love him so much. I guess last time I was just in denial that I didn't love that person, if that's what you want to call him. I didn't want to admit that I was going to be alone again. I should have been alone. I would have been ALOT better off. I wasted three years of my life over bullshit. I hate talking about it, and everyone might think i'm not over it because I keep talking/writing about it. But believe me, I AM! I am just comparing my AWESOME relationship with Ian who actually cares about to past mistakes. I've learned.
I love you Ian.
I'm done now. Any friends reading this should call me because it seems like no one can take five minutes out of there day to pick up the phone and dial 7 numbers to CALL ME! You say you are my friends, but it is hard to believe when you don't answer my phone calls, or text me back, or ever call me. So pick up the damn phone.
Peace, Love and....I don't know, you think of sometime to add in there.