super junior, dbsk
Title: lovelights
Focus: Hankyung/Jaejoong
Word Count: 1045
Notes: originally posted 11/24/08, for essyllus
it's late, it's dark, and you've both had a few drinks, knocking them back at dinner and again afterwards, sitting at the bar and just talking. but now the bar is ready to close and jaejoong still wants more ("hankyung hyung," he says, without a trace of a slur, "let's go get more beer.") so you find yourself sitting in your hotel room at 3AM, minibar gaping open, drinking beer and eating chips.
"hyung," jaejoong says suddenly, "why are we friends? i mean, junsu and hyukjae-sshi, they've known each other since elementary, and same with yunho, donghae, and kangin. but i only met you when you came to korea. it hasn't really been that long."
you sip your beer contemplatively, (glad that jaejoong doesn't call you hankyungie or hannie, those names are what heechul calls you, and heechul is - well, different), pondering jaejoong's question. you always take your time; always think through every word and every action. life is too precious to screw up by making mistakes.
"i think," you say, pausing to swallow, "we're kind of similar, aren't we? you are a little more impulsive, but we are both shy and easily confusable. we don't seem like my idea of celebrities. but yet we are." when you drink, you lose your korean. sentences become choppy and awkward and you mix up your words; sometimes you forget how to say one thing altogether and have to replace it with chinese that most people don't understand. "jaejoong, you drank so much tonight. you are not feeling drunk at all? i am a-a-af.. 害怕 that you will have a hangover tomorrow."
gentle snores are the only indication that jaejoong has fallen asleep. you realize that he is the type that will suddenly become drunk all at once, and not the type that gradually, and embarrassingly, sinks into a drunken stupor, saying all the things they always wanted to say but didn't quite dare to (or saying all the things they never should have thought).
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when you wake up the next morning, it's 7, and you have yashimmanman at 9. hastily scribbling jaejoong a note, you run out the door to hail a taxi. but even though you've left jaejoong and his questions behind, during the taxi ride, you can't help but think about your answer to his, "hyung, why are we friends?" it's true that you are alike, but you think it amounts to more than that. the first time you stepped into the SM building in korea, when you were introduced to the other members of superjunior and then your sunbaenim, the members of dongbangshinki, the only person you remembered (besides jungsu, who was endlessly helpful as leader - "the washroom is this way, if you're rooming with heechul you should be careful, kibummie is very very smart, yesungie and ryeowookie are the best singers but rather quiet, donghae is playful, eunhyukkie is a softie, i'll wake you up in the morning, what do you like to eat?") was jaejoong.
kim jaejoong, you mouth, jaejoong who was not your hyung but your dongsaeng, jaejoong who looked strong enough to protect two of you, even though you were older.
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filming doesn't end for another 4 hours, when you have to rush off to hyukjae's sister's birthday party. she's sweet and kind, and the two are obviously very close. the party goes on until 10PM, when jungsu herds everybody up and bundles them into taxis, four by four by four by four; junsu and junho have also come along.
when you get out of the shower an hour later, heechul is grumbling from somewhere in the dark. "aigoo, hannie, your phone has been ringing for the past half hour. next time have the sense to take it with you, SOME OF US are trying to sleep because they have to GET UP AND FILM CFs at SIX IN THE MORNING." you ignore heechul and grab your phone, going to the living room to check and see who called.
10 missed calls.
kim jaejoong
kim jaejoong
kim jaejoong
kim jaejoong kim jaejoong kim jaejoong kim jaejoong kim jaejoongkimjaejoongkimjaejoong
you're puzzled. is there something urgent jaejoong needs to tell you? as your finger hovers "call back", the phone beeps twice, notifying you of a voicemail. it's fifteen minutes long, all from jaejoong, fifteen minutes of hi hankyung hyung and WHY AREN'T YOU ANSWERING YOUR PHONE, HYUNG and random singing and bye hyungs. you laugh in delight, nobody has ever left you a message like this before. as you reach to call jaejoong back, you realize you don't need to because he has said everything you ever could; not only is jaejoong perhaps a little more impulsive, he is also far more articulate. (maybe this is why we're friends, you think. just because.)
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"hi, hankyung hyung. hi, hyung. hi~ hyung~ when i woke up this morning, i had the worst headache. i don't know if you noticed last night, but i always get drunk very suddenly. and then i have splintering headaches when i wake up. anyway, you weren't there when i woke up, so i didn't have anyone to get me aspirin! i had to get it myself. but then i saw your note, so i'm glad you weren't late for yashimmanman. did you know that kang hodong once got very angry at yunho because he was ten minutes late to a filming? i hope you didn't get yelled at, hyung. so WHY AREN'T YOU ANSWERING YOUR PHONE? it has to have been at least seven minutes by now. or maybe ten, i don't know. i'm not very good at keeping time. what time did you sleep last night? hopefully it was soon after i did, what time did i fall asleep? i hope the makeup noona didn't yell at you for having big eyebags and acne!! okay hyung, i have music bank rehearsals early in the morning and then sukira until twelve tomorrow night, so yunho is telling me to sleep now. so i will, because i don't want to end up like you this morning! haha, goodnight hyung~ i hope you sleep well. have extra sweet dreams - you can have mine, i don't feel like having any. goodnight! bye bye, hyung..........................." BEEP
Focus: Hankyung/Jaejoong
Word Count: 1045
Notes: originally posted 11/24/08, for essyllus
it's late, it's dark, and you've both had a few drinks, knocking them back at dinner and again afterwards, sitting at the bar and just talking. but now the bar is ready to close and jaejoong still wants more ("hankyung hyung," he says, without a trace of a slur, "let's go get more beer.") so you find yourself sitting in your hotel room at 3AM, minibar gaping open, drinking beer and eating chips.
"hyung," jaejoong says suddenly, "why are we friends? i mean, junsu and hyukjae-sshi, they've known each other since elementary, and same with yunho, donghae, and kangin. but i only met you when you came to korea. it hasn't really been that long."
you sip your beer contemplatively, (glad that jaejoong doesn't call you hankyungie or hannie, those names are what heechul calls you, and heechul is - well, different), pondering jaejoong's question. you always take your time; always think through every word and every action. life is too precious to screw up by making mistakes.
"i think," you say, pausing to swallow, "we're kind of similar, aren't we? you are a little more impulsive, but we are both shy and easily confusable. we don't seem like my idea of celebrities. but yet we are." when you drink, you lose your korean. sentences become choppy and awkward and you mix up your words; sometimes you forget how to say one thing altogether and have to replace it with chinese that most people don't understand. "jaejoong, you drank so much tonight. you are not feeling drunk at all? i am a-a-af.. 害怕 that you will have a hangover tomorrow."
gentle snores are the only indication that jaejoong has fallen asleep. you realize that he is the type that will suddenly become drunk all at once, and not the type that gradually, and embarrassingly, sinks into a drunken stupor, saying all the things they always wanted to say but didn't quite dare to (or saying all the things they never should have thought).
+++
when you wake up the next morning, it's 7, and you have yashimmanman at 9. hastily scribbling jaejoong a note, you run out the door to hail a taxi. but even though you've left jaejoong and his questions behind, during the taxi ride, you can't help but think about your answer to his, "hyung, why are we friends?" it's true that you are alike, but you think it amounts to more than that. the first time you stepped into the SM building in korea, when you were introduced to the other members of superjunior and then your sunbaenim, the members of dongbangshinki, the only person you remembered (besides jungsu, who was endlessly helpful as leader - "the washroom is this way, if you're rooming with heechul you should be careful, kibummie is very very smart, yesungie and ryeowookie are the best singers but rather quiet, donghae is playful, eunhyukkie is a softie, i'll wake you up in the morning, what do you like to eat?") was jaejoong.
kim jaejoong, you mouth, jaejoong who was not your hyung but your dongsaeng, jaejoong who looked strong enough to protect two of you, even though you were older.
+++
filming doesn't end for another 4 hours, when you have to rush off to hyukjae's sister's birthday party. she's sweet and kind, and the two are obviously very close. the party goes on until 10PM, when jungsu herds everybody up and bundles them into taxis, four by four by four by four; junsu and junho have also come along.
when you get out of the shower an hour later, heechul is grumbling from somewhere in the dark. "aigoo, hannie, your phone has been ringing for the past half hour. next time have the sense to take it with you, SOME OF US are trying to sleep because they have to GET UP AND FILM CFs at SIX IN THE MORNING." you ignore heechul and grab your phone, going to the living room to check and see who called.
10 missed calls.
kim jaejoong
kim jaejoong
kim jaejoong
kim jaejoong kim jaejoong kim jaejoong kim jaejoong kim jaejoongkimjaejoongkimjaejoong
you're puzzled. is there something urgent jaejoong needs to tell you? as your finger hovers "call back", the phone beeps twice, notifying you of a voicemail. it's fifteen minutes long, all from jaejoong, fifteen minutes of hi hankyung hyung and WHY AREN'T YOU ANSWERING YOUR PHONE, HYUNG and random singing and bye hyungs. you laugh in delight, nobody has ever left you a message like this before. as you reach to call jaejoong back, you realize you don't need to because he has said everything you ever could; not only is jaejoong perhaps a little more impulsive, he is also far more articulate. (maybe this is why we're friends, you think. just because.)
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"hi, hankyung hyung. hi, hyung. hi~ hyung~ when i woke up this morning, i had the worst headache. i don't know if you noticed last night, but i always get drunk very suddenly. and then i have splintering headaches when i wake up. anyway, you weren't there when i woke up, so i didn't have anyone to get me aspirin! i had to get it myself. but then i saw your note, so i'm glad you weren't late for yashimmanman. did you know that kang hodong once got very angry at yunho because he was ten minutes late to a filming? i hope you didn't get yelled at, hyung. so WHY AREN'T YOU ANSWERING YOUR PHONE? it has to have been at least seven minutes by now. or maybe ten, i don't know. i'm not very good at keeping time. what time did you sleep last night? hopefully it was soon after i did, what time did i fall asleep? i hope the makeup noona didn't yell at you for having big eyebags and acne!! okay hyung, i have music bank rehearsals early in the morning and then sukira until twelve tomorrow night, so yunho is telling me to sleep now. so i will, because i don't want to end up like you this morning! haha, goodnight hyung~ i hope you sleep well. have extra sweet dreams - you can have mine, i don't feel like having any. goodnight! bye bye, hyung..........................." BEEP