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I am a vair affectionate person and I'm going to explode pretty soon from lack of human contact. This probably sounds ridiculous and I'll admit it sounds a little strange even to me. I guess it all depends very much on the mood that I'm in. For example, when I'm stressed out or upset, I make very clear my need for personal space. Even someone accidentally brushing against my arm pisses me off. But when I'm happy, as I have been exceedingly for the past few weeks, I crave affectionate contact. I remember when we first stepped foot in Venice. I was so happy that I kissed Hez.
It's this desire to be close to the people around me that has been driving me insane. It's not that I'm not contented with the people around me. Far from it! Everytime I see my roommate I want to hug her and in class I want to rest my head on Amanda's shoulder. At Elf's party last night, I hugged her at every legitimate opportunity to do so. The only thing that is holding me back, is knowing that my friends aren't comfortable with it. Amy apologizes everytime our arms touch when we're walking together to class. Amanda absolutely hates being touched. Elf... I don't know about Elf, but even if she was okay with me hugging her all the time, she's not around because she's at a different campus this year.
As far as male friends go, I'm pretty sure none of them would understand, prior to reading this entry, that my desire to cuddle was purely plutonic. Actually, Dave might understand. And Glenn would totally work if he still lived across the hall. Actually, I envy Glenn his ability to be so affectionate with everyone.
Ugh, I'm going to go hug the t-shirt pillow now.
-Xenos
Edit: 01/15/09 || Dear Macaroni, you make me all squiggly inside. Too squiggly. I want to hug you a lot. Sincerely, Cheese.
It's this desire to be close to the people around me that has been driving me insane. It's not that I'm not contented with the people around me. Far from it! Everytime I see my roommate I want to hug her and in class I want to rest my head on Amanda's shoulder. At Elf's party last night, I hugged her at every legitimate opportunity to do so. The only thing that is holding me back, is knowing that my friends aren't comfortable with it. Amy apologizes everytime our arms touch when we're walking together to class. Amanda absolutely hates being touched. Elf... I don't know about Elf, but even if she was okay with me hugging her all the time, she's not around because she's at a different campus this year.
As far as male friends go, I'm pretty sure none of them would understand, prior to reading this entry, that my desire to cuddle was purely plutonic. Actually, Dave might understand. And Glenn would totally work if he still lived across the hall. Actually, I envy Glenn his ability to be so affectionate with everyone.
Ugh, I'm going to go hug the t-shirt pillow now.
-Xenos
Edit: 01/15/09 || Dear Macaroni, you make me all squiggly inside. Too squiggly. I want to hug you a lot. Sincerely, Cheese.