where are all the aeroplanes?
"Sometimes, between people, it takes a long time to get over the disappointment they can cause each other."
I think I'm going crazy. I could be laughing so hard one moment, & the next second i'd be crying like the world's dying. why why why must all these happen. why, just when you think that nothing will ever go wrong, the most wrong of all wrongs happened. And, I can't stop my brain from thinking. I think too much, till i become too paranoid, till it turns out that i'm the one stopping myself from entering the door that's still open. I doubt too much. I'm starting to doubt everything I had with you. With any of you. Was it only my owh wishful thinking & blindness or was it really real, the love & trust we had in each other? I think I'm doubting too much, but I can't stop myself from thinking. And, I can't stop myself from hating. I really hate people misjudging me, misunderstanding me, i really hate all that, and what's worst is the people once closest to me misunderstood me & expect me to make up for everything. Thing is, you guys aren't the only one hurting in there. I'm trying to look past all of these and focus on what I want in the future, to be back with you guys. But it hurts even more to know how long it'll take, and only how much time we have left, and to know that it's impossible to be as close as before. And that'll be when I've really lost my best friends.
If a person doesn't have friends, she'd never feel hurt or would never hurt anyone, right?
Someone, take me away from this place.