Lucky ones?
"I am one of the lucky ones." quoted from another mom.
Is she really one of the lucky ones? Sometimes it feels that way. Sometimes I feel that I'm one of the lucky ones. What's really easier...better? The daily struggle? Or the hole in your soul?
I would trade my easier life for more time with Beth! But I don't have the minute by minute feeling that I'm going to fail. I already failed.
Maybe she (the other mom) is one of the lucky ones. I think neither of us is lucky. Not just because we have had the struggle but because both sides have a very bitter taste.
Yesterday, I was just starting to feel like I was finally living. It occurred to me that I wasn't just surviving anymore. And then I read the news.
About 5 minutes ago I was trying to figure out why losing Bibi wasn't as hard on me as losing Taylor. I thought maybe it was because I saw the signs with Bibi. Now, I think it's because I was already in my dark place. It didn't make my heart sink because it was already in so much pain.
Is she really one of the lucky ones? Sometimes it feels that way. Sometimes I feel that I'm one of the lucky ones. What's really easier...better? The daily struggle? Or the hole in your soul?
I would trade my easier life for more time with Beth! But I don't have the minute by minute feeling that I'm going to fail. I already failed.
Maybe she (the other mom) is one of the lucky ones. I think neither of us is lucky. Not just because we have had the struggle but because both sides have a very bitter taste.
Yesterday, I was just starting to feel like I was finally living. It occurred to me that I wasn't just surviving anymore. And then I read the news.
About 5 minutes ago I was trying to figure out why losing Bibi wasn't as hard on me as losing Taylor. I thought maybe it was because I saw the signs with Bibi. Now, I think it's because I was already in my dark place. It didn't make my heart sink because it was already in so much pain.