Presumptuous
Do you ever get the feeling that people may be trying to subtly manipulate you?
Maybe I'm paranoid...
When people are presumptious it pisses me off....I've been feeling kind of weird and awkward lately. Uncomfortable, really, about certain things that have happened in my life recently. I dunno what this is or where it comes from but its that stupid little voice in the back of my head saying: "UH oh...here comes trouble....just draw some lines and back away, stop being so nice..." I can't help being nice...it's in my nature...Even if it inhibits me from doing what I really want, or, saying how I really feel...I aim to please at my own inconvenience, and it has to, ABSOLUTELY has to stop.
Work was good today...ish....I came in on my day off, so they had me screen for a couple hours to catch them up in the front area, and then they sent me to the donor room to cover 2nd shift breaks for Phlebotomists. I stuck only 14 people today and thats bullshit, lol, I'm used to sticking somehwere around 35-45 people a day. However, i wasn't running my own bay, just helping where i could. I had no mess ups today tho ;) yay!!! I feel that I'm moving towards being a really good phlebotomist. It's not hard at all.....most of the time...however, you do have your people with craters in their arms and their vein is right NEXT to it, and you're wondering "Why isn't the vein underneath the scar tissue??? Why is it NEXT to the scar tissue?" So i tried to stick this one woman....her vein practically ran away from the needle as it entered her skin....Kamy fixed it, no problem and that was that. Then Waunika came up to me as i finished sticking a donor, she had a straight face and said: "Carmen wants to see you upstairs." and walked away. I almost had a palpitation. So i went up and all she wanted was for me to sign for the cooler i got. Yay. and I was stuck in her office for 45 minutes with DUMBASS Dave who is like ultra weird and he rattled on the WHOLE time brown-nosing her going: "Yeah I've been a manager for 18 some years, and i was just encouraging the screeners to screen faster and get to work and they yell at me because i'm not their boss...." and I'm thinking "You've only been here a month and a half.....and ALL you know how to do is screen regular donors and chart run. After a month and a half, I'd learned how to do complete worksheets, chart run, AND setup and disconnect in the donor room." Back down biatch. I'm currently signed off in 4 areas now, I AND II up front and I and II in the donor room, all I need to do is get my senior in the donor room and medical reception and ALL i need to learn is lab. Thomas is a senior in the lab already......I dunno what else to say on that subject so, moving on
I love my apt....rephrase, i love it five months from now when I have furniture...or hopefully sooner than that. OOh and cable. I love being on my own sometimes, but i freak out and explode from loneliness sometimes, so its kinda schizo, i just think its because i have no cable, lol.
Wow this post is long, i think i'm gonna go.....
Night y'all.