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So, I am updating. For the first time in like eighty five and a half years. Well, that might be an exaggeration but you get the point. So this is basically going to be a rant, but first, let me go over a couple good points.So for the past couple of weeks I have been hanging out with a really really really good friend of mine, Erin, and we've had an awesome time...To bad she is spending the next ten weeks at a girl scout camp...I'll miss her.
So, I am confuzzled about a lot of stuff. Like, I have a job right now, but honestly, I dont feel like it's the right time for me to have one. Like,I'd rather work some other stuff out then go and spend time I don't really have at a job I don't really like. I mean, I could do chores and get an allowance to make money and put it into my acount that way, but it would take that much longer to raise money for my senior trips and other things I want to do. I am still trying to sort so much out and it really seems I am alone in this. I mean, people say I can talk to them, but I dont know how to, or what to say, so it really doesn't help. So I bottle it all up. But people know when I am lying or upset, so they bother me anyways, and it just makes things worse. I just want things to be ok, like they used to be. And I know people say it's going to take time, I just think time is taking too long right now.
So, I am confuzzled about a lot of stuff. Like, I have a job right now, but honestly, I dont feel like it's the right time for me to have one. Like,I'd rather work some other stuff out then go and spend time I don't really have at a job I don't really like. I mean, I could do chores and get an allowance to make money and put it into my acount that way, but it would take that much longer to raise money for my senior trips and other things I want to do. I am still trying to sort so much out and it really seems I am alone in this. I mean, people say I can talk to them, but I dont know how to, or what to say, so it really doesn't help. So I bottle it all up. But people know when I am lying or upset, so they bother me anyways, and it just makes things worse. I just want things to be ok, like they used to be. And I know people say it's going to take time, I just think time is taking too long right now.