Okay, so, as of...2:30 Saturday morning I was sure I was going to drop Kanji. I even had a drop post all written up. Then, I remembered a piece of advice I got once. Basically, it was that the best way to know if you're ready to drop a character is if you can think of someone else apping him and be okay with it ( Read more... )

I don't actually know what possessed me to write this but I think I just needed to put it all somewhere so I could work through Kanji's thought-process myself. It's not terribly well-written but I've been up since 3:00 PM yesterday, so it's good enough for me.

( why Kanji isn't as happy as he seems OR my boyfriend's dead and that's sad )