Am i such a bad person?
Like seriously. Am i bad friend? Do i really put people down without even realizing it? I've always known that i was opinionated. But i never realized that i put people down while explaining myself. And am i really immature? Naive? Boring even?
I know that most of my friends are all away at college, but i still think that we have good times when we're together, evne if we aren't going out and getting wasted all the time. So what if 90% of my friends are in girl scouts...does that mean all of us are silly little girls? And because we talk about high school gossip every once in a while, does that mean we haven't moved on from high school?
I've been "fighting" or....maybe more like...arguing? maybe, i don't know the right word, with my "friend" matt for the past couple of days. He has brought up every point i questioned in this entry. I know i'm not the most interesting person in the world but...he has made it sound like it's impossible to be my friend. Is it? Is it him or is it me? I love all my friends dearly, and i'm not incredibly unhappy with myself....but maybe i have this illusion about myself that other people see that i don't see....
I know most of you, especially caryn if you read this, lol, are going to be like "Fuck him, he's a moron, he doesn't know what he's talking about, you're awesome, blah blah" but...i don't know, talking with someone that hasn't been my friend all that long and knowing he's brutally honest, i can't help but wonder if what some of he says is true....
I know that most of my friends are all away at college, but i still think that we have good times when we're together, evne if we aren't going out and getting wasted all the time. So what if 90% of my friends are in girl scouts...does that mean all of us are silly little girls? And because we talk about high school gossip every once in a while, does that mean we haven't moved on from high school?
I've been "fighting" or....maybe more like...arguing? maybe, i don't know the right word, with my "friend" matt for the past couple of days. He has brought up every point i questioned in this entry. I know i'm not the most interesting person in the world but...he has made it sound like it's impossible to be my friend. Is it? Is it him or is it me? I love all my friends dearly, and i'm not incredibly unhappy with myself....but maybe i have this illusion about myself that other people see that i don't see....
I know most of you, especially caryn if you read this, lol, are going to be like "Fuck him, he's a moron, he doesn't know what he's talking about, you're awesome, blah blah" but...i don't know, talking with someone that hasn't been my friend all that long and knowing he's brutally honest, i can't help but wonder if what some of he says is true....