2009 in review
Well, it definatly wasn't my favorite year, but I guess it could have been worse.
The most memorable event in 2009 has to be watching my parents marriage dissolve in front of me. My mother, and I use that term only because I have too, chose to throw almost 25 years of marriage away and move out in October. Hopefully, by March the divorce is final, and my Dad can move on with his life.
It is also the year that my mother punched me and told me that I was the biggest mistake of her life and that I ruined her life. And people have wondered for all of these years why my mother and I never got along?? Hmmm. The sad part is, I think I have known that's how she's felt for as long as I could remember. So needless to say, I only speak to her when I have too.
But on a positive note:!
My life has been blessed, despite the crap. John is paying for me to go to school to become a dog trainer, and we bought a puppy! Monte is the joy of the house and my Dad's little buddy. John just recently started a new job working with mentally delayed clients, which means more reliable hrs and work, no more construction! He seems to enjoy it, and he's also planning on tutoring on the side. Dad is adjusting to first shift, but misses nights. Lowe's got rid of the night shift at the distribution center, so he had to move to 1st and a new department.
I'm still at Michael's but it's still only part time. I'm hoping that this was my last holiday season in the lovely world of retail. If I have my way, by fall/winter I'll be running my own business, but we'll just wait and see for now.
I learned how to be even more independant in 2009. I found myself out of contact with the world, somewhat by my own choice, but found that it also proved who was still around and who still cared. This past year I found myself in a very dark and bad way, but I feel as if the light is starting to burst through. I am not alone, I am very loved by many and by one remarkable man. I am very blessed.
May you all have a wonderful, blessed, and Happy 2010!
The most memorable event in 2009 has to be watching my parents marriage dissolve in front of me. My mother, and I use that term only because I have too, chose to throw almost 25 years of marriage away and move out in October. Hopefully, by March the divorce is final, and my Dad can move on with his life.
It is also the year that my mother punched me and told me that I was the biggest mistake of her life and that I ruined her life. And people have wondered for all of these years why my mother and I never got along?? Hmmm. The sad part is, I think I have known that's how she's felt for as long as I could remember. So needless to say, I only speak to her when I have too.
But on a positive note:!
My life has been blessed, despite the crap. John is paying for me to go to school to become a dog trainer, and we bought a puppy! Monte is the joy of the house and my Dad's little buddy. John just recently started a new job working with mentally delayed clients, which means more reliable hrs and work, no more construction! He seems to enjoy it, and he's also planning on tutoring on the side. Dad is adjusting to first shift, but misses nights. Lowe's got rid of the night shift at the distribution center, so he had to move to 1st and a new department.
I'm still at Michael's but it's still only part time. I'm hoping that this was my last holiday season in the lovely world of retail. If I have my way, by fall/winter I'll be running my own business, but we'll just wait and see for now.
I learned how to be even more independant in 2009. I found myself out of contact with the world, somewhat by my own choice, but found that it also proved who was still around and who still cared. This past year I found myself in a very dark and bad way, but I feel as if the light is starting to burst through. I am not alone, I am very loved by many and by one remarkable man. I am very blessed.
May you all have a wonderful, blessed, and Happy 2010!