They say it's my birthday
Word on the street is that it's my birthday. Might be the card and check I got from my mother, the fabulous (and I do mean *fabulous* gift bag from Joy, which included a jar of her coveted homemade tomato sauce that she gives to no one, some amazing cheese, pickles, her OMG pickled carrots that she knows I would die for, some wonderful decaf tea - I told you it was fabulous), it might be the wonderful brunch with free flowing bottomless mimosas, girl time, and a wonderful home made creme brulee, or it may be the 100+ messages on my FB wall. All of which made for a really nice day.
In my usual fashion, I'm taking vacation time around my birthday, and will be off this coming week. I'm used to having more time available to take off, but that I have a week available is great, considering that in April I had 0 hours of vacation and 1 hour of sick leave. I don't have much time or money to travel, although I'll be going up to Arlington on Thursday to visit folks up there for a few days. I've been feeling a bit run down the last few weeks. It's partly the heat (it's brutal right now), partly mold, partly I haven't really had a good bit of restful time off, since the last time I was off work, I was sick.
It's been a very challenging year since my last birthday. Last year at this time, I had just gotten in to see Dr. Slater. I wasn't feeling too badly at that time, but of course, things would get a lot worse before I'd get better. Health issues have made this a rough year. I would seriously never wish the kind of vertigo I had on a regular basis on my worst enemy - I have never been so sick, or felt so helpless, so out of control. I don't know if I'm "cured" but I will say it's been 2 months since I've had any vertigo, which is the longest I've gone between attacks in more than a year and a half. I'm not quite ready to give up my public excursion safety nets (barf bag, medications) - maybe down the road I'll feel more secure.
In addition, it was a hard year because I had an opportunity at forgiveness and new beginnings with someone from my past, and that didn't work out very well. This has really hurt me, because I would like to have that person in my life, but I couldn't with their conditions (not to mention that I don't believe they are ready to move on from the past, and I'm well beyond that particular past).
But things are going pretty well, on the whole. I have a nice place to live, good friends I get to see on occasion, two sweet, goofy, healthy kitties, the ability to buy too many books and travel around to do the things I like to do, and a job where most of the people there appreciate my work. I just got my performance review this past Monday, and it was pretty damned good, couldn't get much better. Considering all the challenges I had to deal with this past year, and how it was affecting my ability even to get to work at times, I'm happy that what was important was the quality of my work, which I stand behind. As I've said many times, I don't worry about making mistakes, we all do. But I want to be able to correct my mistakes when they come to light.
I do have some goals for the next 2 years (I turn 50 in 2 years), so I'd like to see some progress made on those. I don't want to grow old and die alone, I'd like someone just for me to come into my life. Someone I can trust, who is willing to be with me. I'm not the typical woman, I know that. I'm very unlike a lot of ladies, so it will take a unique man to be with me, a tall order. I also want to do something grand for my 50th birthday, which will no doubt take lots of money. I'm temporarily cash poor as I'm still dealing with medical bills. But I know to do something grand, I'll need to save up. Eye on the prize and all that.
Meanwhile, a week of rest. I'll do some reading, some sleeping, catch a movie or two. Just a lot of not much (well, except I do have a dentist appt on Tuesday, gotta do it).
In my usual fashion, I'm taking vacation time around my birthday, and will be off this coming week. I'm used to having more time available to take off, but that I have a week available is great, considering that in April I had 0 hours of vacation and 1 hour of sick leave. I don't have much time or money to travel, although I'll be going up to Arlington on Thursday to visit folks up there for a few days. I've been feeling a bit run down the last few weeks. It's partly the heat (it's brutal right now), partly mold, partly I haven't really had a good bit of restful time off, since the last time I was off work, I was sick.
It's been a very challenging year since my last birthday. Last year at this time, I had just gotten in to see Dr. Slater. I wasn't feeling too badly at that time, but of course, things would get a lot worse before I'd get better. Health issues have made this a rough year. I would seriously never wish the kind of vertigo I had on a regular basis on my worst enemy - I have never been so sick, or felt so helpless, so out of control. I don't know if I'm "cured" but I will say it's been 2 months since I've had any vertigo, which is the longest I've gone between attacks in more than a year and a half. I'm not quite ready to give up my public excursion safety nets (barf bag, medications) - maybe down the road I'll feel more secure.
In addition, it was a hard year because I had an opportunity at forgiveness and new beginnings with someone from my past, and that didn't work out very well. This has really hurt me, because I would like to have that person in my life, but I couldn't with their conditions (not to mention that I don't believe they are ready to move on from the past, and I'm well beyond that particular past).
But things are going pretty well, on the whole. I have a nice place to live, good friends I get to see on occasion, two sweet, goofy, healthy kitties, the ability to buy too many books and travel around to do the things I like to do, and a job where most of the people there appreciate my work. I just got my performance review this past Monday, and it was pretty damned good, couldn't get much better. Considering all the challenges I had to deal with this past year, and how it was affecting my ability even to get to work at times, I'm happy that what was important was the quality of my work, which I stand behind. As I've said many times, I don't worry about making mistakes, we all do. But I want to be able to correct my mistakes when they come to light.
I do have some goals for the next 2 years (I turn 50 in 2 years), so I'd like to see some progress made on those. I don't want to grow old and die alone, I'd like someone just for me to come into my life. Someone I can trust, who is willing to be with me. I'm not the typical woman, I know that. I'm very unlike a lot of ladies, so it will take a unique man to be with me, a tall order. I also want to do something grand for my 50th birthday, which will no doubt take lots of money. I'm temporarily cash poor as I'm still dealing with medical bills. But I know to do something grand, I'll need to save up. Eye on the prize and all that.
Meanwhile, a week of rest. I'll do some reading, some sleeping, catch a movie or two. Just a lot of not much (well, except I do have a dentist appt on Tuesday, gotta do it).