Oh how I wish
I'm still sick. It's getting to the point where it's very hard to talk... I feel depressed. I need to get bettr so I can get out and exercise.. I haven't felt so modivated lately because I want affection so badly. It's so hard not to reach out and just grab certain people... I believe that's what happened with Adam.. Not to say it was my fault. When I saw he felt comfortable holding me I wanted it all the time. I'm like that.. I never get affection.. It makes me feel sad, unloved... I just hope I can find a guy friend who dosen't mind hugging me, who dosen't mind cuddling.. I feel so insecure in my self from the lack of attention and love.. I wonder if any one cares.. I wish some one would..