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[renee7226]

We're moved into the new apartment now and the internet barely works here because we're bummin off somebody else's connection until we get our cable set up. This apartment is so much better than AU Trail. The only thing is we're pretty close to the railroad tracks so it can get pretty loud and its sucks even more cause my room is closest to the

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[bignick786]

We are life partners for a reason Renee. I am alone and have been for 19 years, as with Gabe, Sean never loved me like he said he did. Every now and then I hang out with him and I know that I am very near over him. I look at him now and feel pity for him but also a moderate hatred for him for what he did to me and how much he hurt me. When I look into the future I never see anyone but me, living alone in an apartment downtown. The only reason I am not saddened by this is because I have you and Paris mainly, but of course all the other people that have always been there for me and as always my family. The only way I do not just go ape shit on Sean is because I know that one day, after he is married, he is going to lose it because he is so terrified of being himself, a gay man. For me, I can't be sick of being single like many people get because I am going to be single for a long long time and probably forever. Just be thankful you are down in Auburn with everyone, at least you can walk to the other side of the apartment and see Paris. I love y’all and miss y’all terribly.

[renee7226]

I think eventually we will find somebody; we are still very young so I'm not giving up but I have always imagined being alone too when I'm old so that kinda sucks but I miss you and love you too Nick! Call me; I might come in town Sunday. I don't know yet.