coming down from mania - plus PMS notes
I started coming down from my mania about a week ago. Last Tuesday I was having dinner with Dianne, and I think I could tell then. I told her I had been better, but had also been worse so it's going ok. I had decided to cancel sitting in with Scott Askew at KAOS for the following Wednesday since I'd be home late WEdnesday due to ESL-ing and I had work that day anyways, starting at 9 I think. If I were still manic I would have done it from, say 7:30 am to 8:30 but no dice. Scott understands the whole work thing though (as he put it). :)
Other than that, my Spanish learning slowed down but I kept my ability constant, just wasn't reading from the textbook or listening to podcasts as much. But I watched the TV shows and listened to Juanes and other music.
I don't know if I'll go in to KAOS this Wednesday. Tomorrow night (Tuesday) I have ESL and during the day I'll work at ABC printing.
Plus I started my period today, Monday March 13. I had had a bad previous week of not exercising, eating too much, getting a coldsore and acne, and a HORRIBLE night of pain where I couldn't sleep for a couple of hours (just last night). These are all symptoms I remember from the last time my period was coming up, so I think I have the culprit...I also wonder if it's responsible for my slide out of mania? Not sure.
For Lent I gave up pain killers which has been a very good thing. This will be the real test though, cuz cramps can be killer. But I think I can do it. I mean, how bad can it be? I think the ibuprofen actually WORKED for cramps though, whereas for headaches and back/shoulder spasms it was just something to do, taking pills that is. I feel like not taking them has cleansed me, and I wouldn't have done it had it not been for Lent, even though I knew they were ineffective. I mean, when you're in pain, what do you have but hope? Hope that they WILL work this time. Only now I have a reason, spiritual or whatever, to not take them. I don't see it as spiritual so much, but I dunno.
Anyways, I've got to get back to my spanish so I'm in good shape for ESL tomorrow...ironically. The cramps are starting though, so I think the next day or two will be painful. Hopefully ABC will keep me busy. And I exercised yesterday and today and feel great because of it. Odd that I can exercise DURING my period but not before, really. Though now I'll be ready to fight that feeling of not being able to.
Oh also I should note that I think I may have been getting sick last Monday/Tuesday cuz of using the phone all day working temp for Master Builder's Association. I think it irritated my throat and made me not want to exercise cuz that would further irritate it. So, maybe that was the culprit and not menstruation. Either way, I'll be watching out. Also, yesterday I blamed my weeklong inactivity for the extra pain I was feeling at Seanaghan's party (Friday the 10th) and the next day and Sunday. I still think that may have been part of it. Maybe all of it. But last night's hours of pain that kept me from falling asleep is definitely related to menstruating. I just woke up today knowing that it would start today, then, a few minutes later, it did.
By the way, I haven't made any changes in my other blog either. Guess that too was a commitment that came and went...
PS: I also think that my weight loss from last entry (10 pounds!) may have psychologically let me tell myself I could let up on the exercise and dieting. Bad!! Since I work at ABC tomorrow I can weight myself again and get myself back on a more realistic track...
Other than that, my Spanish learning slowed down but I kept my ability constant, just wasn't reading from the textbook or listening to podcasts as much. But I watched the TV shows and listened to Juanes and other music.
I don't know if I'll go in to KAOS this Wednesday. Tomorrow night (Tuesday) I have ESL and during the day I'll work at ABC printing.
Plus I started my period today, Monday March 13. I had had a bad previous week of not exercising, eating too much, getting a coldsore and acne, and a HORRIBLE night of pain where I couldn't sleep for a couple of hours (just last night). These are all symptoms I remember from the last time my period was coming up, so I think I have the culprit...I also wonder if it's responsible for my slide out of mania? Not sure.
For Lent I gave up pain killers which has been a very good thing. This will be the real test though, cuz cramps can be killer. But I think I can do it. I mean, how bad can it be? I think the ibuprofen actually WORKED for cramps though, whereas for headaches and back/shoulder spasms it was just something to do, taking pills that is. I feel like not taking them has cleansed me, and I wouldn't have done it had it not been for Lent, even though I knew they were ineffective. I mean, when you're in pain, what do you have but hope? Hope that they WILL work this time. Only now I have a reason, spiritual or whatever, to not take them. I don't see it as spiritual so much, but I dunno.
Anyways, I've got to get back to my spanish so I'm in good shape for ESL tomorrow...ironically. The cramps are starting though, so I think the next day or two will be painful. Hopefully ABC will keep me busy. And I exercised yesterday and today and feel great because of it. Odd that I can exercise DURING my period but not before, really. Though now I'll be ready to fight that feeling of not being able to.
Oh also I should note that I think I may have been getting sick last Monday/Tuesday cuz of using the phone all day working temp for Master Builder's Association. I think it irritated my throat and made me not want to exercise cuz that would further irritate it. So, maybe that was the culprit and not menstruation. Either way, I'll be watching out. Also, yesterday I blamed my weeklong inactivity for the extra pain I was feeling at Seanaghan's party (Friday the 10th) and the next day and Sunday. I still think that may have been part of it. Maybe all of it. But last night's hours of pain that kept me from falling asleep is definitely related to menstruating. I just woke up today knowing that it would start today, then, a few minutes later, it did.
By the way, I haven't made any changes in my other blog either. Guess that too was a commitment that came and went...
PS: I also think that my weight loss from last entry (10 pounds!) may have psychologically let me tell myself I could let up on the exercise and dieting. Bad!! Since I work at ABC tomorrow I can weight myself again and get myself back on a more realistic track...