As I Enter the Shadows...
Title: As I Enter the Shadows
Author: remorsful_rain
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Kirk/Bones
Disclaimer: I don't own Star Trek or it's characters I'm just playing with them a little.
Summary: Jim drowns his pain in the only way he knows...
Jim had managed to make it through an entire day of classes before the itch had grown too large to ignore. He stepped out into the afternoon sun, and promptly veered toward the closest bar. He needed to get hammered. A small voice at the back of his mind was telling him he was acting like some kind of petulant girl, but he brushed it off. After all this was how he’d always dealed with emotionally charged situations. A bottle of whiskey could understand you like no one else.
The bar was stuffy, and surprisingly crowded. Then again it was a Friday afternoon, so there were a lot of people out to get a head start on the weekend drinking binge.
Jim chose a seat at the bar and ordered whiskey. He winced as it burned on the way down. It was all a misunderstanding, a big misunderstanding. A misunderstanding that had caused him to lose what little ground he’d been able to gain with Bones.
The bastard didn’t even believe his explanation, and it was even right for once. Jim winced with another shot. His childhood had left Jim with some serious emotional scars, and while their relationship hadn’t started any different than all his other one nighters Bones was giving him something he’d never gotten before. Stability. For once he had someone that was willing to go every step of the way, and force Jim to keep his life strait. Yet, he should’ve seen a bump in the road of this magnitude. He should’ve known that good things didn’t last for him.
That didn’t help that it felt as though he’d gotten a slap in the face, but he got that feeling a lot so it was nothing new. What was new was the fact, for once, the promiscuous Jim Kirk was willing to hold on and ride this crazy wave out. It could be his innate stubbornness rearing its head, but he wasn’t quite ready to give up yet. Still that didn’t help cover up the pain and anger that the confrontation had dredged up.
After four more shots, Jim could feel the hate and anger boil up. He can hear the blood pounding in his ears and all he wants to do is curse Bones, his ancestors and all of his descendants at the top of his lungs. Or maybe hurl his glass at the wall, or better yet get into a fight.
It takes all of his will for Jim to take a deep breath and calm his pulse down enough to think clearly even if still a bit drunkenly. He knows it’s the booze that’s making him feel so violent. The alcohol is shutting off the part of the brain that lets him think and act logically. Jim throws some credits down and stands up to leave. He better get out of here before he does something stupid to jeopardize his career, or something that would prove Bones right.
The air outside the bar was cool and the dusk was settling around him. Taking a deep breath of air that wasn’t heavy with the scent of smoke or vomit, Jim turned toward his barrack building. Deciding to take a short cut, he stepped into a side alley. He saw them, three shadows detaching themselves from the wall. He recognized the shape of one of them. That girl had been more trouble than she’d ever know.
“Hello boys,” Jim stated conversationally, his fists balling up at his sides.
The shadows advanced on him, and he welcomed the blind darkness of rage.
There's a hate inside of me like some kind of master
I tried to save you, but I can't find the answer
I'm holding onto you, I'll never let go
I need you with me as I enter the shadows...
Shadows - RED
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Poor Jim. Life just never treats him right.
This has been sitting on my hard drive for awhile I thought I'd update the series. The next part is partly written, or complete I can't quite remember right at the moment.
Dragon's Keeper should be updated here soon too. If anyone would like keep nudging me to update it so there's not huge gaps between updates I'd welcome it. I have the next chap written, but it feels like it's missing something so if anyone wants to volunteer to read it and give me an opinion just let me know.
C'ya soon!!