A few poems

[remorsful_rain]

I hit my first animals today, while I was driving. To make it worse they were our animals. I guess it's something that has to happen eventually, hitting an animal. It doesn't mak it hurt less. It's worse when you're the one to hit them... To make it worse I was the one who had to move them off the road so no one else ran over them.
So in the classic way I deal with trama, here are some poems. I might add more depending on how depressed I get.

It's not the Same, Not anymore

I need you to tell me it’s okay

But to me it’s not okay

My pounding feet brought me close

To close to the horror of what I did

I wanted to turn and run

But run I could not, I owed you that

I blame myself even if there’s nothing to atone

I want to lock it away, may it never see the light of day

May it gather dust, and the hinges rust shut

But I know it won’t go quietly, and it’s the first of many

No one is perfect, no one is innocent

Not any more

To Forget

Memories I live to forget

They sneek up on me when I least expect

The pain of what I’ve done won’t leave me alone

Sometimes I wish I had a heart of stone

They would’ve left eventually

I just boosted the process exorbitantly

There are some left, for that I’m grateful

But they don’t make it any less painful

Logicality

I try to categorize logically

Hide behind my wall of impenetrability

My brain points out why it shouldn’t bother me

My heart reminds me of the horror of what I see

I want my heart to go far away

I want my brain to talk to me and stay

I will drown my sorrows in what I can

Because these memories I can not stand

Stay tuned for possibly more...