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This summer has had its share of ups and downs. I have lost contact with some old friends and met many new friends. I feel like a totally different person, and almost guilty when I have to choose who I want to hang out with. I love my old friends, they have been there for me so many times but i know now they wont always be there when I need them. I
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I dunno, it's good that things are better for you now. You used to say that you never really had people you wanted to hang out with much, and now you have tons of people calling you 24-7 asking to hang out. Don't feel guilty when you have to choose. I hate to sound old (especially when I'm younger than you!) but this is your life, and you're only gonna be this age once. You're only going to be free enough to do stuff every night for so long, so do what you want to do. Hang out with who you want to hang out with. Yes- that might hurt people, but it hurt you for a little while didn't it?
Obviously I'm not saying to be rude about it (and you wouldn't anyways, when you've answered calls from other friends when you're doing stuff with us, you're always nice, but honest). Now obviously, I wouldn't cancel plans- but if you have an open night and 3 different people call you- go for who you want to be with, you'll regret it later in life if you don't. Not saying you'll remember it, but if you keep compromising, then you'll probably remember it...I know I do *rolls eyes*
"Once I wanted more than was given, another time i offered more than i should have. I hate crossing that line of friendship." Totally know what you mean there...and that's probably just one of those horrible 'you live, you learn' type lessons that suck, but just almost always happens.
I don't think people would intentionally play with your head. I know when I had that phrase said about me, it was not an intentional thing, I just didn't know what I wanted, and wasn't sure if the other person was totally serious. I think that most people who seem to be playing with other people's heads like that, they're probably just not sure about things, and confused as to exactly what they want. They might be thinking they want one thing, and mistake that for something else, but go after that one thing- and have it NOT be what they needed (if that made any sense at all)
Anyways...you've got a lot going for you Anthony. You're super smart, and just an amazing person to be around. You bring out the best in people. And I know I may act all awkward around you and stuff, that's just because I don't have social skills lol...so I don't want you to think that when I'm all quiet and stuff it's because I'm bored, or not interested in doing things with you guys- I LOVE doing stuff...I just don't know how to express it I guess. I have my moments of going back into that whole social thing...I'm not afraid of it anymore, I've just forgotten a lot of stuff as stupid as that sounds.
Time sucks doesn't it? I wish we were able to start doing stuff again in the begining of summer, now you're going back to school, I'm sure somethings gonna happen with me...not exactly sure what (don't know how many options there could be lol) but I've really got to start moving in the whole 'life process' thing...I feel like I've just kind of taken a year off from life all together- friends, school, family in a sense, just everything...and I CAN'T do that anymore lol, so you know- we're all gonna be busy now. So I can see what you mean about the 'just settled, and now off to college' thing.
Anyways- I hope things go well for you up at Purdue :) You've gotta let me know if you get my brother as a teacher...that'd just be weird. Sorry for rambling *sinks down in chair* lol
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