Who picked the music?
Still feel blah. Maybe it's just SAD, that seasonal ablahbalh dissorder or whatever. aka "winter blues". Gimme sunlight please?
Maybe it's the fact that he doesn't care. One word answers. Saying "heh" to things like "You don't care".
I heard that clingyness is a turn-off. Perhaps it's getting to him. But I can't stop it. It's how I am. I just want someone to love me! God. I need human contact and affection.
It's draining without it. Its like I have no reason to wake up. So I sleep, sleep, sleep.
No inclination to travel. Not to EP, not to Halifax. Hardly out my door. Because then I have to act. I have to smile and be polite. I just want to hit everyone. Or hug them. Yesterday I went out with Pat and laughed though, it was nice.
I got a book to read. Maybe that will take my mind off of this world for a bit.
But I want to know what happened. How can you go from "falling in love" to not even caring? I just don't get it. I havn't done anything different then I normaly do. But I'm scared to talk to him. I don't want him to dislike me anymore then he already does. I should be excited for tommorow, to see him again. But I'm not. I'm scared. How do you act around someone that doesnt really care for you, that's supposed to? Its confusing and uncomfortable. Then I'm going to have to work and I dont want to. That's the last thing I want to do. I wish it were summer. Then I could stay in bed as long as I wanted.
I think I'm gaining weight. I know my face is breaking out and getting dry. My hair's ugly.
Maybe it's the fact that he doesn't care. One word answers. Saying "heh" to things like "You don't care".
I heard that clingyness is a turn-off. Perhaps it's getting to him. But I can't stop it. It's how I am. I just want someone to love me! God. I need human contact and affection.
It's draining without it. Its like I have no reason to wake up. So I sleep, sleep, sleep.
No inclination to travel. Not to EP, not to Halifax. Hardly out my door. Because then I have to act. I have to smile and be polite. I just want to hit everyone. Or hug them. Yesterday I went out with Pat and laughed though, it was nice.
I got a book to read. Maybe that will take my mind off of this world for a bit.
But I want to know what happened. How can you go from "falling in love" to not even caring? I just don't get it. I havn't done anything different then I normaly do. But I'm scared to talk to him. I don't want him to dislike me anymore then he already does. I should be excited for tommorow, to see him again. But I'm not. I'm scared. How do you act around someone that doesnt really care for you, that's supposed to? Its confusing and uncomfortable. Then I'm going to have to work and I dont want to. That's the last thing I want to do. I wish it were summer. Then I could stay in bed as long as I wanted.
I think I'm gaining weight. I know my face is breaking out and getting dry. My hair's ugly.