A. and J. again
I gave her one more chance, and she stood me up. I'm not surprised. I'm just a stupid one more chance kind of person. The follow letter will be mailed tomorrow:
Dear A.,
Apparently, you don't want me in your life anymore. I can only guess that something I said when we talked on the phone after you got back bothered you. I wish, instead of ignoring my calls and being cold to me, you would have discussed things with me. I have no idea why J. acted cold to me.
I know you worry about people being judgmental to you and I understand why, but you have to understand that there is no one to blame but you and J. That is the only judgment I've made-that y'all have done this to yourself. If I was being truly judgmental, I wouldn't have tried to remain your friend.
When I said that I wanted to discuss things, it was because you have been lying to me for several months now. Before I can really forgive you and be supportive and start fresh with our friendship, I needed the truth. I can't have a friendship built on lies, whether drugs were involved or not.
I have a right and an obligation to protect my heart from pain and that is why I'm letting you know that it hurt me deeply that you have chosen to ignore my calls and messages-that you have chosen to let our almost 5 years of friendship fall away. I wanted to help you through this recovery and time of great sadness, but I won't sugarcoat the things I say or pretend that you didn't mess up badly.
Regardless of your circumstances, you have to think about the best way to let people help you and the best way to deal with people talking about what you and J. have done.
I appreciated the Step 8 letter I got from you. I wish J. would have sent one too because I cared for him almost as much as I cared for you.
I wish y'all the best of luck with your recovery-not just with the drugs but also with finances, DHS, and housing. I pray for y'all often-especially the girls.
But I'm letting you go before it hurts me anymore. I'm not going to leave anymore messages or spend anymore time waiting for you to talk to me.
Goodbye,
Holly
Now I need to learn how to reserve myself. I don't want to be a closed off person, but I'm tired of being too open. This is how bitterness happens, but I'm fighting against that.
I didn't mention the couple of thousand dollars they still owe us from when we helped them 3 years ago with the down payment for the house that they are now losing. The house they manufactured meth in. I'm not mentioning it because that ball is in Tony's court. If he wants to pursue it, he can. I would much rather just forget her in an attempt to dull the pain.
Dear A.,
Apparently, you don't want me in your life anymore. I can only guess that something I said when we talked on the phone after you got back bothered you. I wish, instead of ignoring my calls and being cold to me, you would have discussed things with me. I have no idea why J. acted cold to me.
I know you worry about people being judgmental to you and I understand why, but you have to understand that there is no one to blame but you and J. That is the only judgment I've made-that y'all have done this to yourself. If I was being truly judgmental, I wouldn't have tried to remain your friend.
When I said that I wanted to discuss things, it was because you have been lying to me for several months now. Before I can really forgive you and be supportive and start fresh with our friendship, I needed the truth. I can't have a friendship built on lies, whether drugs were involved or not.
I have a right and an obligation to protect my heart from pain and that is why I'm letting you know that it hurt me deeply that you have chosen to ignore my calls and messages-that you have chosen to let our almost 5 years of friendship fall away. I wanted to help you through this recovery and time of great sadness, but I won't sugarcoat the things I say or pretend that you didn't mess up badly.
Regardless of your circumstances, you have to think about the best way to let people help you and the best way to deal with people talking about what you and J. have done.
I appreciated the Step 8 letter I got from you. I wish J. would have sent one too because I cared for him almost as much as I cared for you.
I wish y'all the best of luck with your recovery-not just with the drugs but also with finances, DHS, and housing. I pray for y'all often-especially the girls.
But I'm letting you go before it hurts me anymore. I'm not going to leave anymore messages or spend anymore time waiting for you to talk to me.
Goodbye,
Holly
Now I need to learn how to reserve myself. I don't want to be a closed off person, but I'm tired of being too open. This is how bitterness happens, but I'm fighting against that.
I didn't mention the couple of thousand dollars they still owe us from when we helped them 3 years ago with the down payment for the house that they are now losing. The house they manufactured meth in. I'm not mentioning it because that ball is in Tony's court. If he wants to pursue it, he can. I would much rather just forget her in an attempt to dull the pain.