"replacing old dreams"
thats what i need to do... i figure if i really wanted something, and it didnt happen i need to replace that, and find something else to put my mind on.. i hate thinking.. thats what always hurts me.. when i think too much and then end up crying or putting too much on a person.. i cant do that.. so i dont think and then things dont hurt... does that make sense.. probably not in the way i mean it... i say shit and then people dont understand it.. or they try to analyze me and that shit just pisses me off... i'm not a fucking puzzle that you can fit together and come up with an answer... i was never ment to be understood... no one really was... these people who say they can read people.. they can.. but they read what you want them to, its not like they understand you, they just can pick up feelings that you are feeling.. i fucking hate people saying they understand me... no they dont, not even my family or my closest friends do.. i dont.. so what makes you think you can,... but thats not even the main point for today kiddies...its just that i need something to work towards,.. hopefully that isnt a relationship,.. because i need to mend i guess,..but what ever comes up or happens... well thats where the road takes me....