Her...
Is she really even worth me staying up nights on end thinking about her...
Her.... the girl...
...the stupid girl...
she isn't the first...
she isn't going to be the last...
I am finally in a place in my life where i feel comfortable enough going forward... experiancing what it's like to love a girl...
I let her in... I expose myself thinking she is doing the same..
i leave myself vulnerable... Im scared...
I get shut down... I get picked up... I get ignored... I get brushed off... I see her face the frustration melts away... why is it that just because I FEEL these things for this girl...
that it isn't returned...
Even if we could just have a friendship it would be better than this SHIT... Ok she wants a friendship and than it turns into fuck this you are nothing to me... i feel like a lost caused...
I am glad i have him to help me through this... I understand our situation seems A little weird... but if only i could find the girl to fit into it... someone who will let me love her as much as I love him... I have so much love to give... I just want to share it...
is that so understand
Forget the Taboo... Forget the social norm ... I am married and love women... There it's out I said it... I want a woman in my life to share what i have... but it appears that most woman don't fit into this... don't want to... don't understand... feel freaked out...
it isn't weird for me... this is just another fact of my life...
Her.... the girl...
...the stupid girl...
she isn't the first...
she isn't going to be the last...
I am finally in a place in my life where i feel comfortable enough going forward... experiancing what it's like to love a girl...
I let her in... I expose myself thinking she is doing the same..
i leave myself vulnerable... Im scared...
I get shut down... I get picked up... I get ignored... I get brushed off... I see her face the frustration melts away... why is it that just because I FEEL these things for this girl...
that it isn't returned...
Even if we could just have a friendship it would be better than this SHIT... Ok she wants a friendship and than it turns into fuck this you are nothing to me... i feel like a lost caused...
I am glad i have him to help me through this... I understand our situation seems A little weird... but if only i could find the girl to fit into it... someone who will let me love her as much as I love him... I have so much love to give... I just want to share it...
is that so understand
Forget the Taboo... Forget the social norm ... I am married and love women... There it's out I said it... I want a woman in my life to share what i have... but it appears that most woman don't fit into this... don't want to... don't understand... feel freaked out...
it isn't weird for me... this is just another fact of my life...