::yawn::
Hm. I'm so sleepy. Too much late night studying, I think. ::yawn::
{ Private, Secure }
I'm so tired. I keep falling asleep in class. I can't sleep at night because my mind keeps wander and... I wish Shinogu was here. He's just so... comforting. Even if I can't return his feelings. I really wish I could right about now. He's so patient though. I wish I could have that hug he offered.... Honya says he sounds quite a bit like me. ¬¬ That's just a bit too weird, I think. Especially... er.. yeah.... Anyway, I don't want to think about what that implies. About us, I mean. (Not that there's really an us, but... oh, nevermind.)
It's hard trying to act as if there was nothing wrong. I don't want to seem like I'm avoiding Ryou, but I... I don't want to see them together. It just... I can't.
I'm so selfish. It's not the worst thing that's been happening. Honya and her friend was hurt and other peple too.. but all I can think about is my own pain. That's why I can't... I can't let him see me like this. I guess it's good that I can pretend that this is all just fatigue.
Heh. Tenjou in his last days was sleeping a lot too... shame I don't have the capabilty to just... sleep forever.
- letter from Shinogu, private -
Dear Soushi,
You aren't stupid, Soushi, so stop saying that. You're smarter than I'll ever be, probably. As for Ryou... I can't do anything about that, but I wish I could give you a hug right now and hold you. I'd keep you warm. You should still tell Ryou about how you feel. What if he said 'yes' to that Bakura person because he doesn't know how you feel? And the longer you wait...
Well, you know that I like you, right? And even if you can't feel the same... I'll be there for you. So you aren't alone, okay? Please don't feel that way. I know you want Ryou, but... still think of me, okay?
I do wish that Ryou could come to his senses and see you the way you want him to, but... you have to take iniciative too, hm?
Love,
Shinogu
- letter to Shinogu, private -
Dear Shinogu,
You're making me blush, stop it. But I do... appreciate everything you've done for me. And I do care for you, I really do.
I'd like that hug.. I feel so cold..
I don't want him to feel guilty. He can't break up with Bakura just because it makes me sad and jealous... Ryou's feelings are the most important thing to me. I want him to be happy. I can live with it as long as I am still his friend. This pain will go away, again, someday..
... I hope...
Oh Shinogu... I think I may love Ryou more than I did Riiko. I don't know why, because in retrospect, I haven't know him for so long, but already I feel like I'd do anything for him, if he asked it of me. I just hate... I hate being so grown up. I wish I could just be more selfish and steal him away. But I can't do that...
Please keep writing to me... onegai.
Sincerely, Soushi
{ Private, Secure }
I'm so tired. I keep falling asleep in class. I can't sleep at night because my mind keeps wander and... I wish Shinogu was here. He's just so... comforting. Even if I can't return his feelings. I really wish I could right about now. He's so patient though. I wish I could have that hug he offered.... Honya says he sounds quite a bit like me. ¬¬ That's just a bit too weird, I think. Especially... er.. yeah.... Anyway, I don't want to think about what that implies. About us, I mean. (Not that there's really an us, but... oh, nevermind.)
It's hard trying to act as if there was nothing wrong. I don't want to seem like I'm avoiding Ryou, but I... I don't want to see them together. It just... I can't.
I'm so selfish. It's not the worst thing that's been happening. Honya and her friend was hurt and other peple too.. but all I can think about is my own pain. That's why I can't... I can't let him see me like this. I guess it's good that I can pretend that this is all just fatigue.
Heh. Tenjou in his last days was sleeping a lot too... shame I don't have the capabilty to just... sleep forever.
- letter from Shinogu, private -
Dear Soushi,
You aren't stupid, Soushi, so stop saying that. You're smarter than I'll ever be, probably. As for Ryou... I can't do anything about that, but I wish I could give you a hug right now and hold you. I'd keep you warm. You should still tell Ryou about how you feel. What if he said 'yes' to that Bakura person because he doesn't know how you feel? And the longer you wait...
Well, you know that I like you, right? And even if you can't feel the same... I'll be there for you. So you aren't alone, okay? Please don't feel that way. I know you want Ryou, but... still think of me, okay?
I do wish that Ryou could come to his senses and see you the way you want him to, but... you have to take iniciative too, hm?
Love,
Shinogu
- letter to Shinogu, private -
Dear Shinogu,
You're making me blush, stop it. But I do... appreciate everything you've done for me. And I do care for you, I really do.
I'd like that hug.. I feel so cold..
I don't want him to feel guilty. He can't break up with Bakura just because it makes me sad and jealous... Ryou's feelings are the most important thing to me. I want him to be happy. I can live with it as long as I am still his friend. This pain will go away, again, someday..
... I hope...
Oh Shinogu... I think I may love Ryou more than I did Riiko. I don't know why, because in retrospect, I haven't know him for so long, but already I feel like I'd do anything for him, if he asked it of me. I just hate... I hate being so grown up. I wish I could just be more selfish and steal him away. But I can't do that...
Please keep writing to me... onegai.
Sincerely, Soushi