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i hate life the only thing i don't hate it my little girl. things just feel like thy are getting worse and i just don't know how much longer i can go i am trying i really am and all i feel is pain even when i look at emilia i feel pain i don't know what to do. i'm never really happy anymore and all i want to do is cry. i have no joy but my little girl but then i just feel pain. i don't know what to do. when i smile its not a really smile its just an act i guess you can say. no matter what i do i feel like shit and it just keeps growing.