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I think there's something wrong with me, which is to say I think I have some mental disease type thingy. I think this because I sometimes go into random bursts of depression. For example, today was generally a good day. But I woke up from my nap and now I'm completely depressed for no reason which I realize...and I'm eating a bag of grapes that my mommy bought me at Kroger's.
I think it's probably 'cause I feel really lonely. Before, I was always used to being alone as much as possible, but I've made some really wonderful friends here at college. And now, sitting here in my dark room alone makes me really sad. I'm not sure if it's because of friends...because I can see them at anytime...two of my best friends, Rui and Jennifer, live in this very building. Marie lives in the building right next to me. I could see them easily if I wanted to...but I think I'm depressed because...
I WANT A BOYFRIEND!!!
I really do...One of my family's friends asked me during spring break if I have a boyfriend. And when I answered "no", he seemed extremely surprised that it's almost the end of my freshman year in college and I STILL don't have a boyfriend. I don't know if I should be surprised as well...most of the gay people I know have or have had a relationship -- I don't know if the one I had really counts as one at all.
Bah...my head hurts. How will I go about finding a boyfriend? Most of my friends are girls and I don't quite know how to meet people...but oh well. I'm hungry. I haven't eaten all day...I have to go to work soon. My tummy's all rumbly. Whoa, it's eight o'clock already...
Oh, and the most exciting news of the day -- I found an .mp3 for the full version of the theme song for the novela "El Privilegio de Amar", which is one of my favorite shows of all time. I've been listening to the song so much and I love it -- it's such a lovely song!!!
I think it's probably 'cause I feel really lonely. Before, I was always used to being alone as much as possible, but I've made some really wonderful friends here at college. And now, sitting here in my dark room alone makes me really sad. I'm not sure if it's because of friends...because I can see them at anytime...two of my best friends, Rui and Jennifer, live in this very building. Marie lives in the building right next to me. I could see them easily if I wanted to...but I think I'm depressed because...
I WANT A BOYFRIEND!!!
I really do...One of my family's friends asked me during spring break if I have a boyfriend. And when I answered "no", he seemed extremely surprised that it's almost the end of my freshman year in college and I STILL don't have a boyfriend. I don't know if I should be surprised as well...most of the gay people I know have or have had a relationship -- I don't know if the one I had really counts as one at all.
Bah...my head hurts. How will I go about finding a boyfriend? Most of my friends are girls and I don't quite know how to meet people...but oh well. I'm hungry. I haven't eaten all day...I have to go to work soon. My tummy's all rumbly. Whoa, it's eight o'clock already...
Oh, and the most exciting news of the day -- I found an .mp3 for the full version of the theme song for the novela "El Privilegio de Amar", which is one of my favorite shows of all time. I've been listening to the song so much and I love it -- it's such a lovely song!!!