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You know...I have been hearing, reading, and talking about those around me a bit. What they go through, what they claim they have done. I see all this...and the emotions that go through them...only to find myself alienated by it all. I find myself questioning all that they say...feeling it a little to heart wrenching. Cant there be a better path for me to go down with less emotions than what I see others go through?
I thought this...and find the answer in being alone for just 1 hour. In 1 hour, I have focused all my scrambled thoughts and went about my day. The urge and rush to clarify EVERYTHING then can put a damper on everything. Chaos creates chaos.
Also, huge lifestyle changes and huge heart displacements also cause chaos. To suddenly love someone can cause chaos...as can moving to a new place. All in turn amplify current scrambled thoughts.
I have come to an understanding with myself right now. Two ways to succeed in life...one is to quickly go through it. This allows you to be traveled, knowledable but not all-knowing, and done with alot of stuff toward the end...making life more laid back once your day off comes around.
The second comes when you slowly go through life. This can sometime's be called doing things the "hard way". This can make you tough, strong, and alot of the times depressed once you find yourself in a problem, most of the time of your own design.
During the past 2 years...I have been going the slow way...finding the company of fellow "companions" to be the most comforting. Though, once I realised that it was the best path for me...things starting breaking down. They still wanted to follow this way of life...I prefered to go down the high road and be safe and successful.
I have been observing myself in comparrison to how I was and how I am now. To be honest, I could say I have been comparing myself to them now to me now.
The results are intriguing to say the least. I noticed I am much more fortified emotionally and mentally...but to be honest my body is not as strong as it could be. With them, the total opposite is true. Life is never so black and white...though very strangly it can be said about results.
To say I am 100% happy would be a lie. I may be mostly happy about all this, but there are times where I stare at the moon and wonder what other things I could have done. What other kinds of people I could have met. Though, to say I regert my choices would also be a lie. I stand by my choices fully...and to say that I am proud of myself of the improvements in myself would be a true confession. I am very proud that I found that life is best, at least in my case, stable and set. In my head I have replayed certain scenarios...only to find that I am the most happy here in my current state...though sadly certain others are not doing as hot. They are doing, and they are pushing with a powerful drive...though still not as hot as I could imagine them being.
So, to end...I have to say that my status in life is pretty good. I do complain sometimes...though that is yet another improvement in myself that I will work ong. Everyone has flaws...everyone faults. Though, to acknowledge and admit it...and sometimes accpet it makes the mold for a true man/woman. Some people cant admit and own up to the lies that they constantly tell...so much that they themselves start to believe it. Sadly, those lies will eat away at the fabrication of the being...making even the most simple choices some of the hardest.
Yet, imperfection is perfection and perfection is impossible. Imperfection causes us to be unique, colorful, and memorable. That is perfect in alot of minds. Yet, to call something perfect would make it immpossible. So I say this...nothing is perfect! Perfect is a term used 100% in rationality and logistics for something with no flaw. With people, it's impossible. Thus, I say true perfection is impossible...though imperfect perfection(being colorful yet loud, memorable yet immoral, passionate yet idiotic) is possible...and that is what the world is made for.
With this mindset...the world around me seems to be brighter...more color and positiveness. I wish certain people would feel this...and be able to rationalise without being apathetic and being able to feel without being rash.
This is my realisation...it came in 10 minutes. There are those around you are trying to form similar thoughts and it is taking them YEARS! That is because they have too much to deal with...and they have too much on the mind. To take care of everything...you need to rationalise and place things in order of priority one after the other. Deal with them once at a time...things will be clearer! Know when to quit, everything need NOT be done right away...you have your whole life to deal with everything. How long your life is, however, is detirmaned on how you live.
Heh, that is just a very long and detailed way of saying..."Everyone, relax! Take a deep breath and take it one step at a time!" ^_^;
I thought this...and find the answer in being alone for just 1 hour. In 1 hour, I have focused all my scrambled thoughts and went about my day. The urge and rush to clarify EVERYTHING then can put a damper on everything. Chaos creates chaos.
Also, huge lifestyle changes and huge heart displacements also cause chaos. To suddenly love someone can cause chaos...as can moving to a new place. All in turn amplify current scrambled thoughts.
I have come to an understanding with myself right now. Two ways to succeed in life...one is to quickly go through it. This allows you to be traveled, knowledable but not all-knowing, and done with alot of stuff toward the end...making life more laid back once your day off comes around.
The second comes when you slowly go through life. This can sometime's be called doing things the "hard way". This can make you tough, strong, and alot of the times depressed once you find yourself in a problem, most of the time of your own design.
During the past 2 years...I have been going the slow way...finding the company of fellow "companions" to be the most comforting. Though, once I realised that it was the best path for me...things starting breaking down. They still wanted to follow this way of life...I prefered to go down the high road and be safe and successful.
I have been observing myself in comparrison to how I was and how I am now. To be honest, I could say I have been comparing myself to them now to me now.
The results are intriguing to say the least. I noticed I am much more fortified emotionally and mentally...but to be honest my body is not as strong as it could be. With them, the total opposite is true. Life is never so black and white...though very strangly it can be said about results.
To say I am 100% happy would be a lie. I may be mostly happy about all this, but there are times where I stare at the moon and wonder what other things I could have done. What other kinds of people I could have met. Though, to say I regert my choices would also be a lie. I stand by my choices fully...and to say that I am proud of myself of the improvements in myself would be a true confession. I am very proud that I found that life is best, at least in my case, stable and set. In my head I have replayed certain scenarios...only to find that I am the most happy here in my current state...though sadly certain others are not doing as hot. They are doing, and they are pushing with a powerful drive...though still not as hot as I could imagine them being.
So, to end...I have to say that my status in life is pretty good. I do complain sometimes...though that is yet another improvement in myself that I will work ong. Everyone has flaws...everyone faults. Though, to acknowledge and admit it...and sometimes accpet it makes the mold for a true man/woman. Some people cant admit and own up to the lies that they constantly tell...so much that they themselves start to believe it. Sadly, those lies will eat away at the fabrication of the being...making even the most simple choices some of the hardest.
Yet, imperfection is perfection and perfection is impossible. Imperfection causes us to be unique, colorful, and memorable. That is perfect in alot of minds. Yet, to call something perfect would make it immpossible. So I say this...nothing is perfect! Perfect is a term used 100% in rationality and logistics for something with no flaw. With people, it's impossible. Thus, I say true perfection is impossible...though imperfect perfection(being colorful yet loud, memorable yet immoral, passionate yet idiotic) is possible...and that is what the world is made for.
With this mindset...the world around me seems to be brighter...more color and positiveness. I wish certain people would feel this...and be able to rationalise without being apathetic and being able to feel without being rash.
This is my realisation...it came in 10 minutes. There are those around you are trying to form similar thoughts and it is taking them YEARS! That is because they have too much to deal with...and they have too much on the mind. To take care of everything...you need to rationalise and place things in order of priority one after the other. Deal with them once at a time...things will be clearer! Know when to quit, everything need NOT be done right away...you have your whole life to deal with everything. How long your life is, however, is detirmaned on how you live.
Heh, that is just a very long and detailed way of saying..."Everyone, relax! Take a deep breath and take it one step at a time!" ^_^;