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When I was weeping to her, ragingpixie said it would probably help for me to write it all down and just get it out and I kind of did, but I don't think I'll ever post all the nitty gritty details.
I am just now going back and reading all of the wank and what surprises me is how many people were like OMG THIS IS THE WORST POSSIBLE ENDING OF ALL ENDINGS AND I HAVE WASTED FIVE YEARS OF MY LIFE. I certainly don't feel like that. I have seen a lot of reactions and none of them is exactly how I feel. And I am not trying to say that no one gets it, just nothing I have read has made me go, "why yes, that's IT!" throughadoor got a lot of it and so did Flozie and the fact that their reactions are pretty much diametrically opposed I think says a lot about how a feel.
A few things:
I didn't hate the ending. I don't feel bitterness or hatred toward CowLip, nor do I feel like the show was a waste of my time.
I didn't love the ending, and that is not just because it was sad. My sadness is sort of irrelevant-- it is possible to weep with sorrow and still say, "wow, that was really good."
I strongly disagree with the opinion that I have seen that in the end Brian is dancing alone but okay with it now because he has grown or changed. I do think that Brian has changed a lot, but I do not think that they did a very good job of showing it.
Of course I am sad and of course I wanted them together at the end but aside from that I am a little disappointed with the fact that the resolution of Brian's story felt off and incomplete to me. I can see Brian being broken but recovering, and somehow finding the life that works for him until he and Justin are together again, but I don't think that we got to see that. In a show that so often knocks me over the head with its message, I was left feeling vaguely confused as to what the creators really wanted me to take away from that. Brian will never, ever change? Brian has changed and is happy? Brian just really likes to dance?
I think what it boils down to is that I feel like they had all of the ingredients there for the perfect bittersweet, beautiful ending, but the recipe just didn't come out right.
I am just now going back and reading all of the wank and what surprises me is how many people were like OMG THIS IS THE WORST POSSIBLE ENDING OF ALL ENDINGS AND I HAVE WASTED FIVE YEARS OF MY LIFE. I certainly don't feel like that. I have seen a lot of reactions and none of them is exactly how I feel. And I am not trying to say that no one gets it, just nothing I have read has made me go, "why yes, that's IT!" throughadoor got a lot of it and so did Flozie and the fact that their reactions are pretty much diametrically opposed I think says a lot about how a feel.
A few things:
I didn't hate the ending. I don't feel bitterness or hatred toward CowLip, nor do I feel like the show was a waste of my time.
I didn't love the ending, and that is not just because it was sad. My sadness is sort of irrelevant-- it is possible to weep with sorrow and still say, "wow, that was really good."
I strongly disagree with the opinion that I have seen that in the end Brian is dancing alone but okay with it now because he has grown or changed. I do think that Brian has changed a lot, but I do not think that they did a very good job of showing it.
Of course I am sad and of course I wanted them together at the end but aside from that I am a little disappointed with the fact that the resolution of Brian's story felt off and incomplete to me. I can see Brian being broken but recovering, and somehow finding the life that works for him until he and Justin are together again, but I don't think that we got to see that. In a show that so often knocks me over the head with its message, I was left feeling vaguely confused as to what the creators really wanted me to take away from that. Brian will never, ever change? Brian has changed and is happy? Brian just really likes to dance?
I think what it boils down to is that I feel like they had all of the ingredients there for the perfect bittersweet, beautiful ending, but the recipe just didn't come out right.