yo!
so yeah...
John, alysia and I all went to see if the chiropractor place still had apartments opened... Nope! so john is going to ask racheal to ask her relitives about apartments they own right in town! if we dont get it, then john said we will move to a different school if it comes down to it! I dont want him to ruin his life for me! i told him I could wait till after high school to find something and he said "no... we're going to do it, and if it takes us moving so be it... I'll do it!" Or soemthing like that... Liss was there!
he makes me so happy... i could picture spending my whole life with him... I love him so much! He feels the exact same way... with my ex boyfriends I could only picture being with them for so long.... to teach me things, and to teach them, but with him.... its something different! It was alll a matter of time!
ofcourse I will always love Ryan and Caleb, that will never change, but they were with me to teach me things! Ryan to love, and caleb to trust! because of those two, I can! And I will always love them for that! And I know they will find people that will see what I see in them love and divotion.... God I love you guys... I always will
With whats been happening recently.... I have had time to grow up, I now realize what it's all about! theres no point in being all broken when you know theres epople out there that love you! I know there always will be atleast one! My life has changed, and I'm getting sick of feeling sorry for myself! Thats not the way to live...
Ryan... I'll love you always, you've shown me how to love
Caleb... You're my spirit, and you've tought me how to trust
John... you're my everything, you've always been there!
Im sorry I did this, but I was trying to save you caleb... just try to understand
thanx for being there guys...
love always and forever
JaDe
John, alysia and I all went to see if the chiropractor place still had apartments opened... Nope! so john is going to ask racheal to ask her relitives about apartments they own right in town! if we dont get it, then john said we will move to a different school if it comes down to it! I dont want him to ruin his life for me! i told him I could wait till after high school to find something and he said "no... we're going to do it, and if it takes us moving so be it... I'll do it!" Or soemthing like that... Liss was there!
he makes me so happy... i could picture spending my whole life with him... I love him so much! He feels the exact same way... with my ex boyfriends I could only picture being with them for so long.... to teach me things, and to teach them, but with him.... its something different! It was alll a matter of time!
ofcourse I will always love Ryan and Caleb, that will never change, but they were with me to teach me things! Ryan to love, and caleb to trust! because of those two, I can! And I will always love them for that! And I know they will find people that will see what I see in them love and divotion.... God I love you guys... I always will
With whats been happening recently.... I have had time to grow up, I now realize what it's all about! theres no point in being all broken when you know theres epople out there that love you! I know there always will be atleast one! My life has changed, and I'm getting sick of feeling sorry for myself! Thats not the way to live...
Ryan... I'll love you always, you've shown me how to love
Caleb... You're my spirit, and you've tought me how to trust
John... you're my everything, you've always been there!
Im sorry I did this, but I was trying to save you caleb... just try to understand
thanx for being there guys...
love always and forever
JaDe