band concert!
Last night.. well.. was great for me! sadly I got close to someone... I feel like I'm ready.. but.. I know my heart will shatter.. and yeah.. not be alive anymore if I have another stressing break-up. ^^ at least that love statue I bought 4 days ago is working! Question is.. why do I like someone thats 3 years older then me? ._.'' wow dosen't that sound horrible.. I won't.. get really close to him yet... we just.. yeah know.. clicked really fast last night.. before I got my insturment out.. we went outside and looked at the sky ( which was romantic to me! )and well.. I was getting cold.. and I was in a dress.. ( yes.. a dress.. shut up )and he slowly got his arm around me... and rubbed my back.. Danika came over and I asked where was Matt.. and she said that she didn't want him to come.. and said that he couldn't anyways.. so I was like.. omg.. I can so grope you now.. so we " pretended " to fall on eachother and groped each other like idiots! ^^ then we groped brandon! Danika left.. and I took meh shoes off because they were killing me.. me and him talked for a bit.. then went inside because well.. I was getting cold.. we got in.. I warmed up a bit.. he still had his arm around me... I felt.. so.. warm and loved.. it was unreal to me.. then I had to play.. he just.. listened to use warm up.. when the clarinets & flutes had to tune up.. I went right back to him like a puppy.. ( god that makes me sound like a whore.. ) we just.. talked a bit more.. then we had to leave to go in the cafetira.. ( which that's where the band was of course )we walked.. and well.. x.x he just HAD to open the door for everyone.. so I waited for him.. impaiently.. x.x just how I am.. T.T then I saw greg and called him a butt munch.. ._. and he said.. if I was nice.. I would comment on how pretty you are.. x.x and I growled at him and kept on caling him a butt munch.. we finally got to the cafeteria.. ._. its hard walking in heels for me.. ._. and they just have to be 3 inch heels as well.. We went to a corner in the back.. we at first.. just stood their.. after the concert band played.. I just.. stood behind him.. and he was poking my stomach.. and I held onto his hand.. x.x and was taking my shoes off as well.. we listened to all of the bands play.. We talked really quietly.. I could barely hear him sometimes.. so he got closer and started to talk in my ear.. I felt the heat go in and out ( which is a huge turn on ) and I felt weakness in my knees.. I just squeezed his hand tighter and got the warmness in my stomach.. I smiled a lot and smelled his shoulder.. god did he smell good.. he took his sweat shirt off after a while.. and I held onto it.. then Rachel came over and was saying I needed to be near jessica and stuff.. and I didn't wanna let go of him.. I just.. wanted to be with him.. and I just wanted hold on.. seeing I was holding his hand.. and I wasn't letting go because my parents were in front of us.. and I didn't want them to see because I really hate getting lectures about guys and all the want to do is have sex and blah blah blah.. So after a while.. Rachel just gave up and went to jesscia... After the trombones played.. he asked why I wasn't in the little sax group thing.. I just looked at him.. and said.. yeah know.. lets just not talk about that.. Zach is just a better player then me is all.. he kinda laughed and just said " okay " and I just relaxed.. and after a while when we were talking.. the only thing I remember is.. that he said he wouldn't let go.. and well.. ._.'' dumb me.. that's the only thing I remember.. and it just.. wow.. made me feel.. so.. great about myself... then I had to play.. I was a bit upset that I had to play.. I didn't wanna let go of him either, when I sat down, I bragged to Zach that I might get a b/f soon.. ._. he just kinda gave me a weird look and said " cool " and then we talked about other things.. ^^ me and Zach have been getting along better.. ._. and first I creeped him out.. and I can't believe I use to have a crush on him! ( still kinda do because he's so nice to me! ) he joked around a lot last night... he said I looked really pretty too! ^^ that made me feel good. During the presentation for the california trip.. I looked around for brandon.. and I started to do the disco.. but.. yeah.. like a finger pointing dancing thingy.. and he did it back.. made me giggle a lot. After the presentaion, my mom came up to me and said that they were parked over near the band room and I said okay.. then I said Catfish to Zach.. ( well.. he said to say it because before we played.. I asked him something and he said to catfish for a reminder )So he told me about the whole Idaho trip and how Andrea and Erik got their groove on and stuff.. made me laugh.. then me and him departed.. I kinda.. slowly ran to jessica to see how she was doing.. she seemed okay.. well.. actually.. she seemed really pissed.. and Daniel and Rachel told me that jakob showed up late and didn't even call! T.T do you know how pissed I got from hearing that.. I so I hurried to the band room.. put my insturment away.. and just.. wanted to see how jessica was doing.. I called her a pretty girl.. held her in my arms.. and just.. let her cry on me.. I told her she'd be okay.. and that I'll always be their for her. After that.. I realized my parents were going to get pissed.. so I saw brandon come in.. and I told him I had to go.. he said " okay " very disappointed like.. and I hugged him.. it wasn't just any regular hug.. it was.. one of those.. " momment hugs " like they have in the movies.. I squeezed tight.. and he squeezed me even tighter.. and we just held each other for a while.. T.T and then of course! Matt ( not danika's matt.. the tuba player guy ) just happen to of just said something to ruin the momment. he said.. " When you laughed up on the stage during the slide show, I laughed too! " ._.'' I just.. turned my head over to him.. and called him a momment ruiner! and stomred out.. x.x god how dumb is that? When I got home.. I called jessica to see how she was doing.. I was very worried.. we talked for about 45 minutes.. I made her feel better.. we talked about brandon.. talked about Jakob.. and all that good stuff.. after me and her got off the phone.. I just.. washed my face off.. and layed down on my bed in my flannel shirt.. ( my night shirt thingy ) and just thought about my night.. and how.. great it was.. for once.. I got to have a great day... and then.. I turned off meh light and went to bed! ^^'' that's how my night was! ._. damn I write alot...