my life so far...
well, I had my birthday of course... it was very nice! I got to have a sleep over, it went over.. okay.. but wish Liz would of been their... oh well! I got to talk to Robert alot, he did become my b/f, but.... it.. didn't work out, he was too clingy.. and I just dug myself a deeper hole of depression... I feel better now.... but.. god.. I"m stressed.. the play, the parade..... all tomorrow... look at me.. its almost 11 and I'm still on the computer.. I have to wake up at 7:30 tomorrow.... god... what am I going to do.... I'm about to cry.. I don't want to though.. but I have to anyways.... My god.. CADE CALLED AGAIN! that's even worse.. I"ve told NOT TO CALL ANYMORE, my parents are going to kill me.... I don't want my mom to get mad at me.... I've tried so hard to avoid the subject... he's called while I've been at band practice.. he's called while I've been at home.. I.. just ignored the call and deleted it off the caller ID.. he's bugging the hell out of me! god.. rehersals were so horribel yesterday... we did them of course.. but 5 people didn't show up... but we went through the play anyways... I studdered of course.. as usual.. but I"m doing much better... some people are doing horrible! alyson, she's the mother of mike teevea, she left! she's one of the prep girls that just joined the class for the EASY A, but.. its not so easy.. I love the class.. I devoted so much to it.. and they almost canceled it today! me and Ryan had to stay longer because some of the idiots in the play just THREW their clothes on top fo the boxes, even though they were told to fold them up and put them away, so we orgonized them and then finally left! we stayed longer becasue of the clothes, and I waited to get my food, IT TOOK THEM A FUCING HOUR! my god! I was sooo hungry.. I didn't even eat that day... I only wanted a number 4 from taco bell... but no, only got two tacos and my drink..... and the tacos had SOUR CREAM ON THEM! I gave Ryan one... I hate sour cream.. bleeh... well, I got my 20 bucks back, but payed John 4, since h ddi go to all the trouble of getting it... payed about 6 bucks for a number 4.. and actually got the food this time... but.. we ate.. me and him talked... and well... I kissed him.. yes, I was still with Robert.. but... I... just couldn't resist... I didn't feel guilty either.... it was one of THE best make out sessions ever.... yes I know.. gross... but... I do care for him... I almost screwed in the KFC parking lot.... I do feel a bit bad for doing that to Robert.... but the boy popped my personal bubble... I should of told Robert about that... but he'll learn sooner or later.... oh well.... * sigh * that's the least of my problems... oh welll... I guess I'll just..... write about my problems later.. bye!!!