o.o life...
well............... its almost my birthday! so excited! having venus, rika, dezmess and that's it! well... maybe miggsy and.. * sigh * satan ( cousin ) lol naw... she ain't too bad.. we just don't see eachother anymore... and we don't get along very well anymore.. its my sweet 16.. I want it how I WANT IT!but my parents are worried about peoples feelings getting hurt and stuff... * sigh * I just wanted it to be the four of us... me, venus, rika and dezmess... oh well! the more the merrier! >< yeah right! btw... uhmm... uhh.. I'm trying to get back with tony.. not working.. I keep on whimping out.. but sean and joel kept on telling I should tell him how I feel.. already well... kinda... so.. I asked sean! can I have a piggy-back ride?! he said sure, and I jumped on his back and joel told him to make sure I made to safeway! and not to let me go! T.T I feel into an evil trap! I set it up myself and didn't even notice! so he carried me over their, we almost got to safeway ( by then, I was walking on my feet ) o.o saw tony from far away... T.T ran like hell.. O.O sean was running after me! caught up! stopped me.. tickled me to death.. ran away when I had another chance all the way to the band room... and hid the rest of the time.. I think tony had an idea.. or he was just VERY clueless... 'cause I never got any weird looks... Joel said I should just tell him up front.. he's choosing between me and Libby.. * barfs * I just got hugs... he remembered my birthday too! I hope I get something from him.... its on a monday.. so he can see if he can go SOMEWHERE to get me something.... if he cares... oh well! him asking me out will be fine.. ( as if he will! * cries * ) oh! I fianllly played DDR! it was VERY HARD! o.o didn't trip... didn't die.. survived! ws horrible.. but oh well... now I"m developing a crush on sean.. yes.. I know.. bad rachel! but yeah.. o.o almost moved too! didn't.. thank god! liz got so depressed over it... then got even more depressed.. she cried on me.. because I made a scrap book from our notes from when we FIRST met.. she cried so much.. I felt so bad.. she gave me a note after.. and said.. rachel, if you do move, how am I ever going to survive, it seems that everyone is drifting away from me, now you! I know we haven't know eachother for a long time, but I don't want to lose anymore friends. I almost cried.. we are making plans anyways now, just because... me.. * sigh * I want a damn boyfriend.... is that so hard to ask?