Rorschach's Journal
Feel like I'm going mad. Can't explain it. Can't wrap my head around this.
Was thinking today. As impossible as it is that there is younger version of me, what if I am younger version of someone else? Went to public library. Looked up name in records. There I was. Except I died in 1985. Was born in 1940. Except I was born in 1980 and am still alive. And younger self. Born around 1992. Still alive. We're not listed. Not in this book. Older self doesn't have a social security number listed on birth certificate. Is rubbed out.
Had another thought. Went to library paper indexes and went to search on the web. 'Rorschach.' Cannot believe what I found. Surely, must be going mad. Apparently in 60's, 70's, and 80's, was a vigilante called Rorschach. Had mask like mine. Worked with another vigilante called Nite Owl. Fought criminals. Murdered people. In '77 law was passed to outlaw vigilantes and he refused. What happened to this law? 1985, was arrested. Mug shot looks identical to me. It is me. Died November 2nd, 1985. No notes about how I died. World was on the verge of nuclear war. Mutually assured destruction. MAD. Then conflict just... Stopped? Can't remember reasons why. Should asked Veidt. World Civ teacher or something.
Apparently is a book. About me. About others. Called Watchmen. Is banned around the world. Can't even find summary on it. Wikipedia has small article, but sounds absolutely ridiculous.
Watchmen.
'We in this country, in this generation, are by destiny rather than choice, the watchmen on the walls of world freedom.' John F. Kennedy
Except he never got to say it.
Are we destined to fulfill these role. Am I destined to become a murderer? Am I destined to die when I'm 45? Why doesn't anybody remember Rorschach? Or the Keene Act? Am I destined to work with that Nite Owl twit? Is my existence the mere breeding of mass serial killers? Or do I have a choice? Can I change this? What about younger me? Why doesn't anybody care or even seem to notice that this is happening again? How could I have passed my life without ever encountering this before? What do I do?
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Was thinking today. As impossible as it is that there is younger version of me, what if I am younger version of someone else? Went to public library. Looked up name in records. There I was. Except I died in 1985. Was born in 1940. Except I was born in 1980 and am still alive. And younger self. Born around 1992. Still alive. We're not listed. Not in this book. Older self doesn't have a social security number listed on birth certificate. Is rubbed out.
Had another thought. Went to library paper indexes and went to search on the web. 'Rorschach.' Cannot believe what I found. Surely, must be going mad. Apparently in 60's, 70's, and 80's, was a vigilante called Rorschach. Had mask like mine. Worked with another vigilante called Nite Owl. Fought criminals. Murdered people. In '77 law was passed to outlaw vigilantes and he refused. What happened to this law? 1985, was arrested. Mug shot looks identical to me. It is me. Died November 2nd, 1985. No notes about how I died. World was on the verge of nuclear war. Mutually assured destruction. MAD. Then conflict just... Stopped? Can't remember reasons why. Should asked Veidt. World Civ teacher or something.
Apparently is a book. About me. About others. Called Watchmen. Is banned around the world. Can't even find summary on it. Wikipedia has small article, but sounds absolutely ridiculous.
Watchmen.
'We in this country, in this generation, are by destiny rather than choice, the watchmen on the walls of world freedom.' John F. Kennedy
Except he never got to say it.
Are we destined to fulfill these role. Am I destined to become a murderer? Am I destined to die when I'm 45? Why doesn't anybody remember Rorschach? Or the Keene Act? Am I destined to work with that Nite Owl twit? Is my existence the mere breeding of mass serial killers? Or do I have a choice? Can I change this? What about younger me? Why doesn't anybody care or even seem to notice that this is happening again? How could I have passed my life without ever encountering this before? What do I do?
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