College, College, College
The only thing that gets me up lately is college. I mean, like, gets me up and out of bed in the morning. Just to clarify.
I'm looking forward to the promise of something better than this. A place where I can be me more comfortably. A place where I don't have to deal with a fucked up family, who can never seem to be peaceful. You know, it's really no wonder I have anxiety and stress management issues. I mean, how sad is it when you realize that the "person" that I depend on the most to never abandon me is Alice? I'll tell you. It's beyond sad. It's fucking pathetic.
Don't get me wrong, there are some things I like about this place, like some of the people. Chances are if you're reading this, you're one of those people, but then again, maybe not. My guess is if I love you, you probably already know it. I'm not very reserved when it comes to telling people what I feel. For example, I told my sister to go fuck herself twice already today. That bitch. But that's a whole 'nother story.
God dammit. I can't wait to get the fuck out of here.
On a positive note, I'm going to see Nicole tomorrow, and maybe we'll party or something. Hopefully I meet a nice boy, have some great gay sex, and come home more... well... at peace, I guess...
Wow, I'm blunt...
I guess I'll let you know how it goes on Sunday...
OH! And on the college note, here's my list:
Yes:
Rowan
NJIT
VA Tech
GA Tech
No:
MIT (Fuck you too)
Waiting:
Carnegie-Mellon (Letter gets sent Tuesday)
UPenn (Online Thursday, 5PM)
Princeton
Tufts
With my fingers crossed, I'm going to try to have some good dreams tonight...
I'm looking forward to the promise of something better than this. A place where I can be me more comfortably. A place where I don't have to deal with a fucked up family, who can never seem to be peaceful. You know, it's really no wonder I have anxiety and stress management issues. I mean, how sad is it when you realize that the "person" that I depend on the most to never abandon me is Alice? I'll tell you. It's beyond sad. It's fucking pathetic.
Don't get me wrong, there are some things I like about this place, like some of the people. Chances are if you're reading this, you're one of those people, but then again, maybe not. My guess is if I love you, you probably already know it. I'm not very reserved when it comes to telling people what I feel. For example, I told my sister to go fuck herself twice already today. That bitch. But that's a whole 'nother story.
God dammit. I can't wait to get the fuck out of here.
On a positive note, I'm going to see Nicole tomorrow, and maybe we'll party or something. Hopefully I meet a nice boy, have some great gay sex, and come home more... well... at peace, I guess...
Wow, I'm blunt...
I guess I'll let you know how it goes on Sunday...
OH! And on the college note, here's my list:
Yes:
Rowan
NJIT
VA Tech
GA Tech
No:
MIT (Fuck you too)
Waiting:
Carnegie-Mellon (Letter gets sent Tuesday)
UPenn (Online Thursday, 5PM)
Princeton
Tufts
With my fingers crossed, I'm going to try to have some good dreams tonight...