can you look me in the eyes, and tell me are you happy now?
so i just want to make a quick update since i suck at it anymore. but its past my bedtime.
i had a really really great weekend. friday i had my date day with my sexy girlfriend jackie patton. we had fun, shopping, eating, eating some more. i swear shes the reason i'm fat. i never go out for ice cream with anyone else. haha well...i guess thats not totally true, but... i'm still blaming her, cuz she blames me. but it was nice, i havent seen her in a million bazillion years. haha and to make it a total jackie patton and ryan date, on our adventure we almost got killed. works everytime. we are the death of each other. and it amuses us both.
then saturday brian came down and (like a true sport) came with me to my sisters house for my moms bday. he was promptly attacked by my nephews who were more than excited to see a boy, since taylor and i certainly dont play weird video games. hehe and my neice is too cute. she comes up and whispers in my ear as theres like a 5 body pileup on me watching big daddy..."is he your boyfriend???"and immediately gets uncontrolable giggles. ooh to be 5 again. what i wouldnt give.
but like finally things are starting to look up for me and it seems like everyone around me isnt happy, or has uncontrolable amounts of drama going on. and i just feel bad. like, if i'm happy they should be happy, and if they're not neither should i. and i know i've waited a long time to get to this point for myself... but i kinda feel like i dont deserve it if all of my friends dont have it too. i dono. i guess i just worry too much. as usual.
i had a really really great weekend. friday i had my date day with my sexy girlfriend jackie patton. we had fun, shopping, eating, eating some more. i swear shes the reason i'm fat. i never go out for ice cream with anyone else. haha well...i guess thats not totally true, but... i'm still blaming her, cuz she blames me. but it was nice, i havent seen her in a million bazillion years. haha and to make it a total jackie patton and ryan date, on our adventure we almost got killed. works everytime. we are the death of each other. and it amuses us both.
then saturday brian came down and (like a true sport) came with me to my sisters house for my moms bday. he was promptly attacked by my nephews who were more than excited to see a boy, since taylor and i certainly dont play weird video games. hehe and my neice is too cute. she comes up and whispers in my ear as theres like a 5 body pileup on me watching big daddy..."is he your boyfriend???"and immediately gets uncontrolable giggles. ooh to be 5 again. what i wouldnt give.
but like finally things are starting to look up for me and it seems like everyone around me isnt happy, or has uncontrolable amounts of drama going on. and i just feel bad. like, if i'm happy they should be happy, and if they're not neither should i. and i know i've waited a long time to get to this point for myself... but i kinda feel like i dont deserve it if all of my friends dont have it too. i dono. i guess i just worry too much. as usual.