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Hmm so I have to be up in 2 hours and be at work by 5.
I can't sleep.
I don't feel safe in my own house anymore.
The past couple of days have been fucking horrible.
I lost the one person that I loved so fucking much. He meant everything to me. He wasn't like other boys.
Horrible memories are coming back and taking over my head.
I can't get them out.
Lost 2 more pounds dropped down to 86 pounds.
Hmm I think I'm sick people. I need someone to talk to and the one person I could rely on everything is not here for me anymore. I'm going to miss him.
What do i do?
I know my other friends are here for me and it helps a bit but I feel like giving up.
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