the eagle has landed
wow i haven't updated this since eric and i broke up, so there's news,... it feels like eons ago. another lifetime?
truth is, i really do feel like my entire opposite-sex psyche has rearranged itself and i feel amazing. i honestly thought that somehow, someway, eric and i were meant to be it... yeah it sounds utterly ridiculous now i know but really, until he and i had tried it, no other guy stood a chance if eric showed interest. god's honest truth. almost a month after our almost two month relationship i've shed that ridiculous skin. even if we're "clones", i'm far too independent to be doted on the way he dotes... too controversial for his passivity... and now over my delusions i've been clinging to for literally years. i thought i could align my own destiny and cheat fate by figuring everything out early. not only was i completely wrong, i know now how much sanity i've been missing. i'm comfortable with my own ridiculous mistake and misconception. i'm at peace.
amazing how one little puzzle piece can change your entire perspective. completely cheeseballed, but really. i am truly, utterly content.
"whatever will happen will happen, but choose your companions with care. choose them because you like to look at them and you like the sounds of their voices, and they have profound secrets in them you wish to know . in other words, choose them because you love them."
-marius, "the vampire lestat"
...why are vampires so smart?
i love: cheesy flicks in gothic lit, bantering with steve maurer, hanging out with benn, my teams, my friends, my recent drunken occasions, shoefly magazine for publishing two of my works, my new sweatpants, listening to bloc party while trekking across campus, beeps on main street,......and not fucking worrying about falling in fucking love.
i.love.life.
truth is, i really do feel like my entire opposite-sex psyche has rearranged itself and i feel amazing. i honestly thought that somehow, someway, eric and i were meant to be it... yeah it sounds utterly ridiculous now i know but really, until he and i had tried it, no other guy stood a chance if eric showed interest. god's honest truth. almost a month after our almost two month relationship i've shed that ridiculous skin. even if we're "clones", i'm far too independent to be doted on the way he dotes... too controversial for his passivity... and now over my delusions i've been clinging to for literally years. i thought i could align my own destiny and cheat fate by figuring everything out early. not only was i completely wrong, i know now how much sanity i've been missing. i'm comfortable with my own ridiculous mistake and misconception. i'm at peace.
amazing how one little puzzle piece can change your entire perspective. completely cheeseballed, but really. i am truly, utterly content.
"whatever will happen will happen, but choose your companions with care. choose them because you like to look at them and you like the sounds of their voices, and they have profound secrets in them you wish to know . in other words, choose them because you love them."
-marius, "the vampire lestat"
...why are vampires so smart?
i love: cheesy flicks in gothic lit, bantering with steve maurer, hanging out with benn, my teams, my friends, my recent drunken occasions, shoefly magazine for publishing two of my works, my new sweatpants, listening to bloc party while trekking across campus, beeps on main street,......and not fucking worrying about falling in fucking love.
i.love.life.