I can put a spare bulb in my hand, and light this whole yard.
Today has been kind of a weird day. I had an exam-first one of the semster-but other than that it's been totally low-key. I watched 2 episodes of Gilmore Girls on my DVD (thanks Angel) and have completed watching all of the 2nd season! Go. Me. Woot. Plans for the rest of the day include going to dinner, watching a repeat of "The Daily Show" since I had to miss it last night, and watching the OC. Yup. Good Day. :)
For lack of a better word, I've been feeling really weird these past two weeks. I've just been bummed out alot, which is really unlike me. And I should be happy, because school is going well and I love my friends and all that jazz. But I dunno...I guess I'm just realizing that there were SO many other options besides PC, and that maybe I should have applied to more schools, or gone to another school that I shall not name because it makes me want to punch a fist in the wall. I dunno. I guess it's because I really, really like my journalism class, and my prof. said that my first article was excellent and that he wouldn't change a thing, and that just made me realize how much I really do love writing and how I'm not terrible at it and how I might have completely screwed myself out of having a good career because I went to a school that doesn't have a journalism or communications major. I realize that that sentence was quite long- I was going for an effect.
But I'm also too much of a coward to transfer...or even consider transferring, because I can't imagine leaving PC. This school really is a great match for me...I feel like I belong, and I can't imagine not seeing Elina and Kateri everyday and knowing that I have such a great triangle of support. And I hate change. And since I know that I am capable of doing the work here, I'd probably be too afraid to try for another, different place. Even though if I told my dad I wanted to transfer to F-----m, he would send in the money right now, no questions asked.
But I'm also too stubborn to do that, because then I would be admitting to my dad that he was right and I was wrong. Plus, I can't imagine living anywhere but here. ugh.
Sorry for this awful entry guys. I just needed to write it all out. I'm even tempted to just delete the whole thing, but since I already wrote it, I might as well post it. later
For lack of a better word, I've been feeling really weird these past two weeks. I've just been bummed out alot, which is really unlike me. And I should be happy, because school is going well and I love my friends and all that jazz. But I dunno...I guess I'm just realizing that there were SO many other options besides PC, and that maybe I should have applied to more schools, or gone to another school that I shall not name because it makes me want to punch a fist in the wall. I dunno. I guess it's because I really, really like my journalism class, and my prof. said that my first article was excellent and that he wouldn't change a thing, and that just made me realize how much I really do love writing and how I'm not terrible at it and how I might have completely screwed myself out of having a good career because I went to a school that doesn't have a journalism or communications major. I realize that that sentence was quite long- I was going for an effect.
But I'm also too much of a coward to transfer...or even consider transferring, because I can't imagine leaving PC. This school really is a great match for me...I feel like I belong, and I can't imagine not seeing Elina and Kateri everyday and knowing that I have such a great triangle of support. And I hate change. And since I know that I am capable of doing the work here, I'd probably be too afraid to try for another, different place. Even though if I told my dad I wanted to transfer to F-----m, he would send in the money right now, no questions asked.
But I'm also too stubborn to do that, because then I would be admitting to my dad that he was right and I was wrong. Plus, I can't imagine living anywhere but here. ugh.
Sorry for this awful entry guys. I just needed to write it all out. I'm even tempted to just delete the whole thing, but since I already wrote it, I might as well post it. later