ani

[redxautumnxskyx]

I am letting the telephone ring
cause i dont want to know why
i don't want to hear you explain
i dont want to hear you cry
i have written so much about you
so much i thought i knew
words like water used to flow
now what could i possibly have to say?
she is someone i dont even know
and all the things that you've given to me
i see now were simply reparations
they were gifts of your guilt
they were my preparation
i know i should be mature
keep my feet on the floor
but for some reason, i just dont want them anymore
i know this shouldn't be important
compared to you and i 
but i can still hear my questions
and i can still hear you
i can still hear you
lie
now vicariously i have her in me
i want to peel off my skin
let the water wash in
you always said that i was hiding
that i was hiding from you
but you are capable of things i could not do
you are capable of things i could not do
i remember how you pretended
you pretended to touch me
i remember how i couldn't bring myself to believe
i remember wondering,
what was wrong?
what was wrong?
how could i be so naive?
how could i be so naive?