Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuuuuuuuuck that was not supposed to happen that way, goddammit, I didn't get to contact anyone, fuck, what the shit am I going to do there is no way I'm going to get back now.

[ E D I T; ]Okay ( Read more... )

I don't know what I'm looking for exactly, but I know I'm not sleeping. (Not sleeping again, I might say - it's becoming something repetitive.) I know it's two and I know he's not coming home again and I know the streets are crawling with them and I know it's been quiet down at the store. Way too quiet. Eerily, disorientatingly quiet and we're all ( Read more... )

They're either putting more guns on the streets or more bullets, and either way it's kind of freaking my shit out enough that I don't like going above ground anymore. I'm not saying I'm scared, I'm just saying they're freaking my shit out, and it's irritating because it makes me all jittery, and if you think it's hard to function around me normally ( Read more... )

I almost want to learn to play an instrument. (Confusing sort of feeling, actually. Weird emotion, which can describe a lot of what I am and what life is right now, if I am and if it's anything. I don't know.) Either way, I'm stuck vaguely wondering if I'm losing the ability to perceive all people as people. I'm stuck wondering if there's something ( Read more... )

Okay, I don't even want to know what the shit's going on, but somehow, between the time it took for me to pass out for a few weeks and really wake the fuck up again the whole Red's gone fuckin' under siege. Shit, what is this?

( P R I V A T E; (hackable) )

Oh Jesus God I can't even believe how much I spent today. Like, I'm glad I didn't have any means of credit system set up going in because I would have no matter how many miles wide my paper trail was. As it is, I can't even bring myself to regret just how much goddamn money I spent - and I spent a freaking ton, way more than I went in even thinking ( Read more... )

It wasn't embarrassing that's not what I'm saying. I just don't really roll like that, and it caught me offgaurd. I'm not fucking ashamed, you keep your fucking mouth shut.

Party kicked ass.

Afterparty was fucking amazing/weird as hell memorable.

Didn't get caught.

Had sex with-

Didn't get caughtWin at life. Pretty officially ( Read more... )